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Unseen

I feel invisible. Why can he not see me? Why can he not notice me?

This is beginning to bother me more and more each and every day.

All I have in my head, are "Why"-questions. But he will not notice me. Or I don't think he will.

We run in different circles, but does that mean that I should try harder? Should I try texting of talking more? I tried texting, but the conversation is always one-sided.

My side.

I try to keep the conversation going. He... (sigh) He doesn't mindcit when the conversation dies down.

But why does this bother me so much?

When we talk, he makes me laugh. Even with his stupid say-things. Or the way he says things. And I don't think he even notices that he makes me laugh.

And he's kind and selfless and shy and cute. I also think he's pure of heart.

Even if we don't work out, I'd like to have him as a friend. If only he wanted a friendship with me as much as I'd like one with him.

If only he'd known ...

Jeez, seems like my whole life seems to be consumed by one boy. One particular boy. But a boy, nonetheless.

But still ...

If only he'd knew ...