Forever Young

Chapter.10

This whole week it’s been um let’s just say difficult for everyone harry still hadn’t accept the fact his going to be a father and lou hasn’t accept the fact that im in hospital doing okay well that’s what everyone thought but him .

It was the modelling,  when we got back was abit of an issue they needed to make me more skinny and it made me really ill but I kept going until I was here in the hospital lying in bed, with of cause the boys  right by me. My manger tried to come in to see me and how I was going but apparently lou didn’t let them in ‘’Hello sky how are you this morning?,’’ the doctor said coming in to my room, which made all the boys sit up instantly ‘’im okay’’ I whispered , and lied , they knew that too I was becoming so week I could barely talk and my bones was starting to show ‘’well will find out in a minute wont we’’ he said smiling and looking at the clip board at the end of my bed , I watched his eyes was scanning through the paper, he noticed I was staring and he looked up and smiled , then he looked at my  blood system ‘okay now I just have check your temperature and  I will go and find out how we can make you better okay sky’’ he said leaving the room , I could feel  lou’s hand tighten around mine , we all watched the doctor come back he had a fake smile I knew this doctor too well, and he made it obvious, ‘’doc im dying aren’t I ?’’ he sniffed a bit and looked down at me ‘’sky you really are the only patient I have ever meet , who is brave and knows what’s going on’’   he said scribbling down on the clip board ‘’HOLD ON YOUR TELLING ME YOUR GOING TO LEAVE HER HERE DYING , SHE I GOING TO DIE!’? THIS SHOULD BE THE FUCKING MANGERMENT THAT SHOULD BE LAYING HERE LIFELESSLY DIEING ‘’lou shouted ..oh god here we go ‘’lou calm down ‘’ ,I said grabbing his hand back down  ‘’no sky…im not leaving you..if your..if your going then fine im coming with you’’, oh my god ‘’lou don’t say that’’ , he looked at me deeply and stared into my eyes ‘’sky now that I have you , I cant let go of you’’  , he had a tear slip out of his right eye , he quickly wiped it away , but then another one followed it , then he wiped that one away but then all these tear was following down his cheek and he just started crying ,I raised my thumb to his cheek and wiped it away ‘’shh’’ he pulled me for a hug I helped him more by pulling him on the bed and he wraped his arms around me and kissed my forehead while kept rubbing his cheek ‘’I love you lou, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me ‘’ I whispered against his t-shirt ‘’I love you too, but I cant let go of you sky…I just cant’’ he said holding on to my now skinny , lifeless, bony, horrible body.

The next morning , I couldn’t feel lous body against mine , oh my god im dead , what I don’t even remember saying goodbye, I opened my eyes and it was just me in the bed , I looked behind me to see on the other pillow that lou was laying on was a note ‘’I love you’’  I sat up a bit and my eyes looked  to the floor where there was red rose pedals , I pulled the layers of blankets off my body and dangled my feet down the bed , what’s going on , then  a very happy nurse came in and helped me into a wheelchair ‘’um could you tell..’’ but before I could finish my sentence she hushed me and made me get changed into this summer white dress and then wheeled me to this room , I saw all these children holding candles or pedals or roses , smiling at me, then she wheeled me in more  and I saw all my boys lined up in black suits and then I saw lou in a white suit and priest next to him , lou walked over to me and opened a case which held a ring a beautiful diamond ring ‘’lou..’’ I whispered , he went on one knee ‘’I think i have said all last night and yeah ..oh god im not good at this..but sky I love you and i want you to be my wife..so will you make me the happiest man on the world and marry me, right here right now?..’’, oh my god I didn’t even think I knew what I was going to say ‘’yes , yes lou’’ I said he picked me gently and kissed me and helped we walk to down the isle(the hall) and we walked to the priest , I couldn’t be any happier , this was the best thing that has ever happened to me .