No Love In The Game, No Trust In The Game!

Chapter 8

"KEVIN OPEN THE DOOR I NEED TO TALK TO YOU! I KNOW YOU SEEN ME CALLING YOU! IT'S AN EMERGENCY!" I yelled as I banged on his door. I didn't care  about it being 3 in the morning I was gonna keep banging until he answered the door. "Kay wtf? Do you know what time it is? What's going on?" He asked half sleep. He opened the door with no shirt and some boxer briefs on. I almost melted as I admired his chest full of tattoos. I hadn't seen him in a while so I almost forgot how fine he was. "I need to talk to you." "Now? At 3 in the morning? It can't wait until later? I'm kind of busy right now." he said trying to push me out of the doorway. "No it can't wait until later, I need you now and what do you mean you're busy? You were just sleeping. Let me in." I said as I pushed passed him and forced myself in. "Kevin baby who is that at the door? Come back to bed." I heard a woman's voice say. "Nobody, it's my little sister baby go back to sleep." he called out. "You ain't shit" I said in disbelief. I couldn't believe him. His little sister? He really gone play me like that for some bitch? "Look Kay, I told you that now is not really a good time." "Why not? You too busy fucking random hoes to listen to your 'little sister'? I said with anger in my voice. "You know it's not like that. I just know how shorty is. She crazy jealous and she do too much. If I wouldn't have said you were my sister she would have got on bullshit and came out here trying to fight you thinking you were one of my side hoes that just popped up over here." He said. "Oh so that's your girl?" "Hell naw. I mean I fuck with her from time to time but she not my bitch. Just something to do when it's nothing to do. You know I don't be out here wifing these hoes. She already know the drill, once the sun come up she gotta bounce. What did you wanna talk about though? What's so important?" He asked. "I know who killed Rachel." I said. "I know who killed her too. I told you Reggie's little brother did it. I'm just trying to figure out who that is." "I know who Reggie's little brother is." I said. "Who is it Kay? Tell me right now and on my mama i'll find wherever he is and murk that nigga!" Kevin said with anger in his eyes. I could tell that his pressure was rising. "It's not that simple Kevin there's more to it." "What you mean?" He asked confused. "You might wanna take a seat for this one." I said as I braced myself for all of this tea I was about to spill to him. "So I've been seeing this guy for about 6 months. I thought he was perfect at first and I've never been happier. I should've known it was too good to be true." I said as the tears began to pour again. "Kay what's wrong?" Kevin asked as he got up and walked towards me. He grabbed me and cradled me in his arms. He was hugging me so tight that I almost couldn't breathe but I didn't care. It felt good being in his arms, Kevin was the only person that I could trust. The only man that I felt like wouldn't hurt me. He always would say that I'm the closet thing to a sister that he has left and that he would die before he let anything ever happen to me. With him I felt so safe and secure. Besides the fact that I secretly wanted to be with him we had a love for each other. A different kind of love than being intimate. We had that family type of bond. Besides mama and Tammy, Kevin and his mother Jackie were the only family that I had. Rachel was gone and Kevin blamed himself for it. I guess in a way, protecting me made him feel like it was the least he could do since he thought he failed at protecting Rachel. It was his way of righting his wrong. I cried in his arms for so long that his chest was soaking with tears. "I'm sorry, I just needed to get it all out. I never cry." I said as I wiped my tears and began to compose myself. "It's cool, you can't keep shit bottled up all the time Karmen. How come you never talk about it?" "Who am I supposed to talk to? Rachel was the only person who I would vent to. She's gone and Tammy is too young to understand grown up problems. I don't have anyone else." "You got me." Kevin said with sincerity in his eyes. "I'll always be here for you. I don't care where I'm at, who I'm with, what I'm doing, I'll drop everything whenever you need me. You have my word." He said with confidence. "Is that right? If I recall correctly, you were just trying to push me out of the door. You didn't even wanna let me in at first because you thought I was gonna start a fight with your lil girlfriend in the room." I said with a smirk and a slight attitude. "Nah, that wasn't even the case. I didn't want her to get on bullshit with you cause I know you got hands and you probably would've beat her ass. I can't have you beating up my bitches." He laughed. "I wouldn't have given her a really bad beating. Probably would've just knocked a couple of teeth out. That would've been doing you a favor." "How is that doing me a favor crazy girl?" "You ever gotten head from a bitch with no teeth? I heard it's amazing." I laughed. "Yo, you play too much" Kevin said as he put a shirt on. "Okay so, finish telling me the story, what's the deal with the guy you been seeing? What happened? Did you find out he's cheating on you or something cause I'll beat his ass." He said in a stern voice. "No it's not that. Well I mean yea I did find out that he's been cheating on me and lying too but that's not the important part. He killed Ray. He's the one that did it Kevin. I can't believe I was so naïve. How could I not know? Out of all the people in the world why did the person who I felt like was my soul mate have to be the one that killed my bestfriend, my fuckin sister. I slept next to him almost every night not knowing that everything he ever told me was a lie. I really thought I knew him but I don't know anything and the worst part is I allowed myself to fall in love with him" I said trying to hold back the tears because I had been crying so much that I was beginning to get a headache. I looked over at Kevin. He was sitting on the couch silent with his hands covering his face and I wondered what was going through his head. "Kevin you okay? I know this is a lot of information at once. I'm just as shocked as you are." "I'm good he said as he got up and paced back and fourth through the living room. "So what's this nigga name? Where he be at?" "His name is Rashad and he be all over the city. He from the west side though." "Wait a minute, So Rashad is Reggie's little brother?" "Apparently. I was at work tonight when one of the girl's told me that he came into the club recruiting girls for his business. Turns out his business is pimping girls. That's where he gets all his money from. This whole time that we've been together I never knew. Supposedly his dad and brother used to run it before you killed them. Now he's in charged." "Yeah, his pops name was Gemini. Him and my pops used to work together back in the day. They used to be real close until jealousy got in the way. When Jermaine started taking off on him and making more money he eventually took over the streets. He had the whole south side on lock and Gemini didn't like that. He was greedy and money hungry and couldn't handle the competition so he told Reggie to off my pops. The crazy part about it is I wasn't even mad about him killing Jermaine. You knew the type of man he was. I was ashamed to even call him my father sometimes because of the shit he did. When I was a kid I used to watch him beat my mama. A scared lil 5 year old boy trying to fight a grown man to protect her. He would beat the shit out of me and tell me to stop that crying shit. That crying was soft and you ain't a man if you cry. He would try to force me to believe that crying over my mother being beat, abused, and raped was me being soft. He would tell me that even though we're family this it's still business and that business is more important than anything. I hated him for that. When Reggie killed him I wasn't mad about that because he actually did us all a favor. I had been planning to kill him myself anyway because I was finally old enough to take him on. I wasn't a scared little 5 year old anymore that couldn't do anything to stop what he was doing to my mama and Rachel but when Reggie came over that night to take care of Jermaine that's not all he did. He beat and raped my mom too. She barely made it so he intended on killing her that night too. That's the reason why I went over there and killed everybody." "So what do we do now? What's your plan. Whatever it is I'm in." I said ready to go to war. "I don't think so. Karmen my plan is to keep you as safe as possible. This shit is too dangerous and I would die before I let something happen to you. Just let me handle this by myself, I got this alright?" He said sounding sure of himself. "Okay so what do you want me to do? I wanna be able to help out in some way. This isn't about you or me. This is about Rachel, she was my sister too so let me help." I demanded. "You so stubborn, you act just like Ray." Kevin said as smiled and grabbed my chin. "Alright, I guess the best thing for you to do is go back and act like everything is still normal. Just pretend like tonight never happened and that you didn't find out the truth about him. Make him believe that everything is still the same between y'all and then when I'm ready i'll make my move." he said. "Kevin you can't be serious. I just found out that my boyfriend....well ex boyfriend now, is the person who murdered my bestfriend. On top of that he's been lying to me about what he does all this time. He's probably been cheating too and you expect me to just go back to him and act like everything is normal. Hell naw, im not that good of an actor Kevin. I want him dead just as much as you do. I won't be able to hide my anger." "You have to Kay, we gotta make sure this shit is done right." "You're making this way more complicated than it has to be. We know who it is now so why can't we just go over there, pop his ass real quick and get it over with already?" I said eager to finally get Rachel the justice she deserved. "Look Kay, the shit not that simple. We cant leave no trace, no evidence, no witnesses, no nothing. Plus that nigga plugged all through out the city. Its difficult to get up with him without it being a big scene." "You're plugged throughout the city too. Why can't you and your boys just go ride over there and light his ass up like a Christmas tree?" "Because ever since I came back my 'boys' been acting different. They been moving funny and its making me suspicious. I don't really know who I can trust anymore and my gut is telling me that one of my so called boys had something to do with Ray getting killed.  Certain shit just not adding up so I gotta fall back from everybody until I figure out which one of them niggas can be trusted. Until then it's just me and you. We can only trust each other. I got yo back, you got my front." He said as he grabbed my hand. My skin touching his skin sent chills down my spine. "You good?" He said because my mind had began to wander. "Yeah, im fine. I guess I should be getting home now, he's probably gonna be calling me soon once he leaves the club." "Okay cool, just remember what I said. Act normal, if he sees even the slightest difference in you he might know something is up. Just do me one favor Karmen." "What is it?" I asked. "Don't fuck that nigga." He said as he gave me the most serious look I've ever seen in my life. "Why not? I thought that's what you wanted me to do. Act normal right?" I asked confused. "Yeah but you can act normal without fucking him Karmen. I don't want that nigga touching you." He said. I could see him starting to get upset. "Okay Kevin, fine. I won't have sex with him. If I didn't know any better I would think that you actually cared about who I have sex with." "Don't assume that I don't care Karmen. I care about a lot more than you know."