"Next!" The man shouts and looks at me, waiting for the moment that I'll get on. Smiling, I'm about to step onto the cart when a boy steps in front of me.
"What do you think you're doing?" I exclaim, he just cut in front of me! The large, handsome...
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Family. It's supposed to be a comforting word yet drives people to run away when they hear the word. It's supposed to be a safe word, something comforting and happy. Most of the time I find it that it's where the deepest heartache is.
Do you ever stay up at night driven by your thoughts, every time you try to think of nothing it doesn't work. All you can do there is keep your eyes closed and over analyse situations again and again. It's like I'm in a battle with my own mind, every single night. Sleep is a word that is comforting yet scary, when I'm asleep I don't need to think about any of my problems but before I do sleep I think about it all.
I'm lost. I'm alone. I'm afraid. This cycle will never end. He will never leave. All I want is for him to disappear and never show his face again. He makes me so so sad. My father is just a reminder of all the things I will never have in my life.
Love. What is love? From what I've learned, it hurts. Feeling so hopeless and afraid that everyone is going to leave you all the time sucks. I never have felt good enough. No one has really ever loved me, so I have to love myself. I'm the only one who can appreciate me, am I right?
My train of thoughts diminishes as an apple pie flies straight into my face, lucky for me I'm in the cafeteria where the whole school can watch. And they are. No one helps me. They just laugh as if my humiliation is the funniest thing on the planet. I stare at absolutely nothing, I feel empty and at the moment I don't care what anyone thinks. Why do people feel such pleasure in bringing other people down?
"Nora, omg are you okay?" Collin snickers at me. She's so fake I can't deal with her. She obviously was the one that thew it at my face, I look around and my eyes meet Blair's. He smirks but I show no emotion, I stand up and walk out of the cafeteria away from the laughing students. They're so mean. She doesn't get to call me Nora, only my friends do. She certainly isn't my friend.
"Oh my god, what happened?" Mackenzie screeches as she sees me walking down the halls with apple pie smeared all over my face and clothes. It's actually quite yum.
"Collin just threw some apple pie at me," I shrug. Mackenzie frowns and clenches her fists, she looks really angry but I feel no emotion at the moment. If I let myself care then I feel like I will break down into tears.
"She will regret the day her parents accidentally conceived her!" She growls and begins stomping to the cafeteria, I grab her wrist making her look at me. I shake my head slowly, another scene doesn't need to be caused.
"Don't. She won't care," I say and release her wrist. She watches in confusion, I begin to walk away but it's her that grabs my wrist this time.
"What's wrong with you? This isn't you, did something happen?" Yes. Something did happen. I shrug and shake my head and I use the excuse that every uses when they don't even mean it.
"I'm tired."
This time, she lets me walk away in my own misery and heart ache. I pass Kyle, I ignore him when he tries to say something to me. I grab my phone out and call Greg.
