Ever since that day, I've always been so happy.
Ever since that day, he has always been the solution to my problems.
Ever since that day, I've been so thankful.
Months had passed and I questioned myself.
Is this love?
I noticed that I-
I have completely fallen for him. Every time I see him, I get butterflies in my stomach.
I wonder if he feels the same...
Should I tell him? No, I shouldn't.
Yet.
Unless he says it first.
I stared deep into my coffee and kept stirring it, hearing the clinking of the spoon against the mug.
I felt hands grab me from behind. It was Jungkook!
My Jungkook.
He gave me a kiss on the cheek, and I smiled.
He sat on the table I was sitting at and almost made my coffee spill.
"Ya! Watch out! My coffee!" I yelled.
"Oops, sorry." he giggled, "Can I bring you somewhere?"
"Right now? Where to?"
"I have a surprise. Follow me." He grabbed my wrist and brought me to the flight of stairs in the building. We went all the way up. To the rooftop.
It was a long way there. My legs started to get sore once we got to the top.
Before he opened the door to the rooftop itself, I stopped, "J-Jungkook, wait. I'm tired." I said, panting and taking quick, short breaths.
I put my hands on my knees and tried to breathe properly. My heart started to race quickly. It started going faster and faster. It wouldn't slow down.
"Jungkook-"
I started to fall backward. All I remember was that everything went black.
Next thing I knew, I was in the hospital. Jungkook, Soo Yun, Jimin, and my parents were there. Surrounding me. I looked at my arm and I had a cast on. I felt my head, there was a big bandage on it.
"W-What happened?" I asked my mom, panicking.
Jimin went outside and called a doctor, "She's awake!"
"Hae Won, you had an asthma attack and you fell down the stairs." she said.
I didn't know what to say. I-
I was speechless.
I saw a doctor come inside and checked me.
"Hello, can you hear me?" the doctor said.
I nodded.
"What's your name? How do you feel? Do you know what happened?"
"Ji Hae Won. I-I feel fine. Apparently I had an asthma attack and I fell down the stairs my mom said."
"Okay, well," the doctor announced to everyone else including me, "She seems fine from being out for a day. She needs to rest for a bit more before we release her."
"T-Thank you, doctor." my mom said.
Jungkook went up to hold my hand, "A-Are you okay?" tears started to shed from his eyes, "This was all my fault, I'm so sorry." he wiped his tears with his sleeves.
"It's okay, Jungkook."
"I just wanted to surprise you, that's all."
My heart broke just seeing him cry. It was the worst. I wanted to look away.
I looked over at my dad. He looked disappointed, sad, and mad at the same time.
Everyone just waited around until the doctor comes back in.
Jungkook was still on my left side, trying to hold back his tears, and my mom was on my right side. I wanted to cry, too, because it hurt me seeing all the people I love hurting also.
I closed my eyes and rested for a bit more.
{Jungkook POV}
This is all. My. Fault.
If I hadn't made her go up those stairs, she wouldn't even be here.
I'm such a dumbass.
I just wanted to surprise her with a special dinner on the rooftop.
I planned it for a long time. For a few weeks. I wanted it to be special. There were candles, flowers, music, and a great view up there. It was all ready and waiting for her.
I even planned what I was going to say:
"I love you, Hae Won."
But I wasn't able to. I guess it will have to wait.
I felt so much blame on me. I want to say sorry a million times, again.
I kept crying and crying until the doctor came in. For hours.
She informed us that Hae Won is able to leave. Finally.
We headed home with her parents. They were going to stay with her and take care of her until she's better.
I had to go back to my apartment and stay there. I couldn't stay in Hae Won's apartment for a long time.
I'm glad Soo Yun and Jimin are happy, though. They recently got together. I felt like a third wheel in the apartment when she came over.
But these six weeks were hard six weeks. I wasn't able to see Hae Won that much. I mean, I did visit her a lot, but only for a bit. It seemed like her parents didn't want me there. Which I understood. It kind of hurt, but I had to hide it.
I've always been so depressed at school. In the morning, I had to deal with going to school by myself. With no Hae Won beside me.
I missed her so much.
I want her so much.
I love her so much.
The six weeks felt like six years. Time went by so slow.
I started to not focus on my studies. My grades started to drop. All the time in class, my mind would focus on Hae Won. Not what the professor was teaching. I would always get called on in front of the class by the teacher. It was embarrassing.
Since I was alone a lot, girls started to come up to me again.
"Did you break up with her?"
"She didn't deserve him anyways."
"Now that she's gone, he'll be mine."
We were instructed by her parents to not tell anyone about what happened to her.
That's why everyone thought her and I broke up.
I was lucky I still had her and soon she'd be back.
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Is This Love? || JUNGKOOK
Romancelove: noun | \ ˈləv \ a feeling of strong or constant affection for a person