Best Kind of Mess [A Marianas Trench Fanfic]

Chapter 5

"Happy Valentines."

Before I could say anything, his lips were on mine. I wanted to speak, but I wasn't completely willing to pull away. Not that it mattered anymore, my mind was drawing a blank at that very moment. Matt's lips had chased away any previous thoughts I had. His hand trailed up my sides, pushing my shirt up. I let him. I knew he wouldn't attempt anything, and it didn't have anything to do with the fact that we weren't alone on the bus. I was familiar with the amount of respect he had for me.

I've only slept with him a couple of times over the course of our relationship, and that's because I didn't want him thinking that it was going to be a regular thing. It was good once in a while, but I was scared that it might turn into a mostly physical relationship if I agreed to sleep with him everytime he wanted me to. His fingertips ghosted over the edge of my bra, but he didn't make any move to unclasp it.

"Mhm," I said warningly, smiling against his lips. Just in case he was getting any ideas.

"I know, I know.." he mumbled. "I have your speech all memorized. You're lucky I love you."

I pulled away after a few seconds to breath, snuggling closer to him if that was even possible

"I didn't even know it was midnight already."

"Five minutes past, actually," he glanced at his watch. "You've been so busy kissing me, understandable."

"I don't need your sass today, Webb," I tried to say with a straight face, but ended up giggling. "Don't ruin the moment."

"Will asking you to please tell me what you and Josh talked about the other day ruin the moment?"

I waited for his smile to show in the tone of his voice, or even a laugh at the end, but he was dead serious. Avoiding talking about it will not do me any good, nor was the fact that I agreed to become Josh's girlfriend for the public. Josh told me that he would let me know once he told Cherie about it, but I haven't heard anything from him. We didn't talk at all yesterday. Although that might have been because I did everything to avoid him.

I did have to be backstage during their set, as how I always did on every single show, helping them with their clothes.. and I spent the whole half hour of their set assisting Josh through his outfit changes. He tried countless times to catch my eye, but I was as professional as I could be. After the set, I ran straight back to the bus, bumping into Alex and the rest of All Time Low. He tried to pull me aside, to ask me about me and Josh, no doubt. No. I was already sick of them.

Before the Calgary show, I made the mistake of taking a walk around the venue a few hours before the concert,I got a variety of looks from the fans whenever they caught sight of me. Some were excited and asked me if it was true, to which I just smiled. I didn't know if Josh already confirmed it to them, so I simply avoided the question. They seemed to think that my smile meant yes, judging by their reactions.

"Oh my gosh, you two are so cute together!"

"You're so pretty, I wish I was you."

Others were more of interrogations than compliments.

"Is Josh a good kisser?"

I frowned at that one. Luckily, the girl didn't see.

"Were you the reason he and Amanda broke up?"

It took all my self-control not to snap at that last one. I should have expected some of them to feel that way, I just didn't think they'd actually say it to my face. I just gave her a neutral smile before going back into the building. Matt, of course, knew that something was wrong. He couldn't talk to me because, unfortunately, Josh was always around where he was. And what with my mission to avoid Josh Ramsay at all costs, it affected my boyfriend.