Fragments of the Broken

What do you want me to do?

I try my best to please everybody,
but it seems like an impossible task
I don't smoke,
don't do drugs,
and I am not a drug dealer either

I am not part of a gang,
and I don't have tattoos
I am not a racist,
nor an homophobic either
I try my best, at been a good daughter
but it seems like I am never good enough
I barely go out,
and have never sneak outside the house

I haven't gone to parties,
and haven't gone out with my friends
just to have some fun

I haven't had a sleepover,
cause they don't want me too,
I keep quiet
and please them
I am not pregnant,
nor have a boyfriend,
just because "it's not my time"
and I should be focused on my studies

God I try so hard,
but it's never enough for them
They expected me to be perfect,
to be the very best,
when at times I feel like I can't

They push me so much,
and I just need a break
from all the comparing
and  their standards,
they keep putting for me to reach,
and then they use their oh so many phrases like;
"You are not like them"
"I am talk about you not them"
"I don't want you to be compared to others"

They are such hypocrites,
and I just can't
with the scolding,
the attitude,
everything they put me through
every
fucking
day
What do you want from me?
What do you expected from me so much?
Can't you see the positive instead?

I am no rebel,
no troublemaker,
no slut,
no cunt,
no nothing,
that you always seem to judge.

I am try so hard
to please you,
but it seems
it's never enough.

I don't know what else to do,
what am I supposed to do?
What do you want me to do?