Same Mistakes -Jason McCann LS-

Chapter 9:Catching feelings

Dan got rid of my arm and he turned back.

''Because of me. He did it because of me.'' I said.

''No. It's not because of you it's my stupidity okay? Just let it go.'' Dan said as he turned back to face me.

''I can't believe him. I can't...'' I couldn't find a word to say.

''Hey, calm down. It's okay.'' He said. He held me by the shoulders hesitantly.

''No, don't.'' I said as I drew back.

''I'm so sorry. I really am. '' I continued.

''It's okay Olivia.''

''No it's not. Stay away from me! Don't ever talk to me again.'' I said as I pushed him out and closed the door.

If talking to me costs this then I can't let Dan get hurt. I can't let Jason hurt him anymore. Not when I know it's my fault. How can he become such a person like this?

I heard footsteps coming from outside. Then ten seconds later Jason got in with plastic bags in his hand. And a big pleasure on his face.

He stood right in front of the door waiting for me to take the bags. I didn't.

''Will you take these?'' he said when I didn't move.

''What did you do?'' I asked with hatred.

''Yeah, it wasn't the biggest pleasure but since you're staying here you're going to need clothes so I went shopping.'' He stated.

''I'm not talking about that. Why did you do that to him?''

''I guess you know why.'' He said as he threw the bags to floor.

''I said it was my fault! Why are you making him pay for my mistakes? He did nothing!'' I shouted.

''Nothing? He broke the rules and he paid for it! And you're breaking yours right now!'' he shouted back.

''I don't give a fuck about your damn rules!''

''You don't? Then why were you shaking last night?'' he started to walk against me.

''Not because of the happiness I assume.'' He continued. I took a few steps back but then I stopped myself.

''Quit the act with I'm not afraid stuff Olivia. You can't even look me in the eye.'' He spoke with a controlled voice.

He was inches away from me. I tilted my head up.

''Isn't that what you wanted? Don't you want me to be afraid of you? You must be happy.''

He didn't say anything. I looked at his eyes. He was looking back at me.

''I'm not.'' He whispered.

The way his eyes looked changed. Softened. Saddened.

''I'm not happy.'' He continued whispering.

No don't do this. Don't look like...him. Please don't.

''Don't.'' I whispered.

''I can't be happy Liv.''

''Jason don't.''

''I miss you.''

'I miss you too.' I wanted to say back but something stopped me. I don't know which one was it: The image of Dan's face or Tom's body?

''You're hurting me.''

''I don't want to.''

''Then don't. ''

He slowly put his hand up, to my face. His hand was inches away from my cheek, he was hesitating. But I helped him. I couldn't stop myself. My own body was not following my orders. I got closer to his hand and let his hand rub my cheek.

''I'm sorry.'' He whispered.

I just nodded as a teardrop fell from my eye. He wiped it away.

''I'm sorry.'' He mumbled once again as his lips brushed mine. Then he kissed me slowly. I didn't want to kiss back at first. But again, I couldn't stop myself and found myself kissing him back. After all this time I missed his touch. I missed his kiss. I missed him.