Short stories {TRIGGER WARNING}

~Schweigen~

I'm pathetic.
I can't go anywhere without headphones in my pocket.
I can't sleep without music playing softly in the background. The same song every night. One repeat.
I can't handle the silence because I'll drown in my own thoughts.
My deadly thoughts.
My thoughts are probably the reason Im in this deep.
This hole I dug for myself. And myself only. No one else.
Stupid thoughts.
Stupid brain for thinking them.
Stupid fucking me.
The girl who can't even handle silence. The girl who has to have some type of sound to save myself from myself.
Stupid.
Stupid.
Stupid.
Why do I have to be so stupid.
And here I am, spilling the whole thing on the fucking internet for anyone to see eventually.
All because I can't handle silence.
Blood thirsty silence.
Murdering silence.
Suicidal silence.

There, I said it.

~Schweigen-silence