Its been a while since I last updated huh? I've been doing okay. Last week I had an emotional breakdown. It was midnight. I was looking through my Korean and Japanese Language notes to review and I came across a letter in my Korean Notebook. It was a suicide letter. I quickly identified that the penmanship was in my little sister's writing. Within the entire letter, My little sister had written all of the depression and it's reasons that she had been keeping inside her head. I have known about her depression for a long time now and being the only person to know, she knew the same about me. The last sentence stated the following, "If you are reading this, don't worry because Im not leaving yet." With an instant flash of so many things going on in my mind, I broke down and started crying for two hours straight. The second hour, crying in front of my little sister herself, but luckily she didn't have a clue of why I was crying to begin with. That night, my little sister came in to sleep in my room with me for comfort. She knows very well that I am extremely attached and overly possessive over her. She is practically the small reason I want to continue living life. It's hard to say that because im not even living life to its fullest. I still need some time to recover from it and I have work this Sunday at a Thai festival in LA. Till' my next update, good bye.
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The Bell Jar, My Beloved Friend
FanfictionThis is a journal for my depression. I will be telling all of the things I have bottled up in my head during my daily life. All of the times I have thought, tried, and failed with suicide. I've been keeping it in for two to three years. I feel th...
