Our Little Secret [Kim Yugyeom fanfic]✔

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KIM YUGYEOM P. O. V. 

What in the world did I just do. My secret. Everything. I was exposed already. There's not turning back now. I don't know what to expect now. Everything stopped, everyone standidng in front of me with wide eyes, except Min-Jee. Am I glad that I helped her? Yes. Do I feel happy now? I'm happy if she's happy but I don't know if she's happy. She's stading right next to me looking at my face. She knows. I'm having an anxiety attack. Panic attack. For Gods sake I'm having every singe attack that I can have right now. It's growing inside of me, I can feel it.

"YUGYEOM, GO TO YOUR ROOM, NOW." Everything started moving again. Everything is happening so fast. She threw my shirt over my chest and screamed again "YUGYEOM, GO, PLEASE, JUST GO I'LL BE THERE IN A SECOND." she pushed me towards my room and I got in. I closed the door and curled myself in a ball. I was sitting next to the bed, shaking, practically crying.

'Why would anyone like you? Look at yourself.'

'You think you can get into our dance team just like that?'

'You're nothing to me.'

'Get out of here! I don't want to see you ever again, you're not my son anymore'

'You just want attention, nothing else.'

"Yugyeom snap out of it please, I'm here now." Min-Jee was crying next to me. "Please, I'm so sorry, it's my fault, just- aghhhh I'm the worst girlfriend ever. I shouldn't have let you do it. Yugyeom please, forgive me, I swear I'm gonna fix all of this, this mess, we're gonna go somewhere far away and be happy. I'm so sorry, Yugyeom, so sorry. I love you don't do this." I snapped out of it. She was my main priority.

"Get up. We're going to your place for you to pack your bags." I said and kissed her. She was just looking me with red eyes.

KIM MINJEE P. O. V.

I watched him as he opened his closet and pull out two big bags out of it. My eyes widening with every step he took. We're doing this. We're doing something hat I wanted to do for a long time now. We're running away.

I got up and made my way out of his room, out of this apartment. Boys weren't in the living room anymore, I don't know where they went but this just made everything ten times easier. I opened the front door and Yugyeom came running.

"Where are your bags?" he asked me. "My parents house." I answered sortly and he just weakly smiled at me and we left the apartment. We were walking to the building's garage and I asked "Babe?" "Huh?" he answered and looked me. "Where are we going?" he smiled again and answered "My grandmother's." That's his hiding spot? Really? Like noo, no one's gonna check his relative's houses first, not at all. My face went blank after he said that but I just followed him untill we came to the car. "You have a car?" I didn't knew that. We were together for quite some time but he always came to my apartment with the bus. "Of course I do baby girl, what did you thought?" he was practically laughing at my confused face "Oh, just get in and I'll answer everything." he said and I got into the car.

We were driving over to my parents house and I was kind of scared. Scared because of him. Is he even okay? I mean, in one moment he's sitting on the floor crying and then, like nothing happened, he just told me that we're going. I don't know anything. How does he feel? Is he better? Is he angry? Why are we going to his grandmother's house? I'm just lost.

"You want some answers?" he broke the silence. "I would love all of them. Yugyeom, I want your life story. Right here and right now." I can't hold everything in. I'm dating a guy that I don't even know. "What are you thinking about me right now Min-Jee?" I don't know what does he mean by that, how can he ask me something like that? "Well, umm I think that.. ummm-" he stopped the car and looked me "Do you still want to be with me?" is he crazy? "Of course! How can you ask me that? I just want answers Yugyeom. I feel like I'm dating a guy that I don't even know. What happened to you in the past? What's your life story Yugyeom?" I asked him and he turned even more serious than he already was.

"Well, let's start then" he started driving again and continued "My life story huh? It all started with my birth right? So my parents never loved me, my brother was always better, always over me and I was practically alone from the begining. My grandmother was the one that cared for me. She was always there, she was the one supporting me and the one stopping me from killing myself. And then, when I actually thought I'm happy and that people like me, everything went down. From the begining I was a dancer and I was in tons and tons of dance clubs but they were nothing for me, zero, and when I wanted to join this big big dance team here in Seoul, my grandmother was the one that payed my trip and apartment here. She gave everything that she got and they, that team, didn't accept me. I was crushed and I couldn't look at her, I told her that they didn't accept me, over a phone, and I told her that I would stay is Seoul, find a school here, then job and that I'll pay her everything back. She didn't want me to pay it back but I did and I'm not sorry. After some time I was kicked out of school because I punched some fuckboy right across the face and I got fired at the same time because 'they found someone better'. That moment, when I was losing every hope, I found Jackson. He helped me, he told me that he has  got an apartment and that there's 6 of them there and, if I want, I can come live with them so everything would be easier to pay. I was happy once again, no one knew about my past and I was happy because of that, it was the best decision I ever made. When Jackson changed, everything changed. We argued more, a lot more and then I met Lu and Xiu. They were highlight of my life. I love my boys more but when everything changed they were only ones that I wanted in my life. So everything was okay and then? Then I met the love of my life actually, but I was affraid, she started acting different, she hided something and I don't know what it is, 

as much as I love her, I hate her even more. It doesn't matter if she's my angel because she's my little devil at the exact same time."

"And why are you with me? To forget her?"

"You are her."