Depression Turns to Sunny Days & Silly Dudes & Crazy Nights

I fucked up

Wed, Mar 28, 6:26pm
I cant stress enough about how much i hate myself like why the fuck did i just do that   i did some fucked up thing i'm a fucked person its kinda why i hate myself so much. I didn't mean i was just afraid. Afraid that id lose. My feelings are growing quicker the longer i'm with you and i couldn't imagine having this big heart full of love for you and then all of a sudden it had to end. At the time i did these fucked up things i was on molly and i'm not blaming it on drugs bc they had nothing to do with it i'm just dumb. I thought that if i ended it now i would be better like that in the long run but fuck i love you and i miss you so much and its only been a couple hours i cant even see myself living after today.
And i hope you know i wasn't lying i do love you and i will never ever stop you will always be part of what made me me every good aspect of my personality has been build up with you so thank you i don't know how to show my appreciation that i have towards you i never wanted to do this but i did and i'm not sure i can take it back actually i know i cant and u probably over me already i'm not tho at this point i think ill just move away and try to get away from all the things that remind me of you bc i dint wanna be reminded of the things i did.