Depression Turns to Sunny Days & Silly Dudes & Crazy Nights

Reflecting

Okay so like my friend hmu and she is was going through something mentally she was all like "the world is better without", "I wanna fucking die". She's fine now, I talked her out of it and she's safe now but that reminded me of my old days back when i use to think like that. Like I was so fucking depressed no joke. Im honestly surprised that im still alive and do you know whyyy I act crazy and do unplanned things all the time. Because as a kid I never thought this far bc i wasnt even planning to be alive rn. This is gonna sound a bit ironic but like the person who helped me through my depression and suicidal thoughts, a year later eventually killed herself. Which as a result brought all of my depression back which sucked. And i still missed and every once in a while ill get reminded of her and ill just need to lay down and maybe cry for a few hours. Honestly so much shit has happened to me like omg it's honestly annoying but whatever.