Deadly Eyes - Swanqueen

Part 3

I was alone in the room for what felt like 24 hours, I had lost all concept of time. I managed to make it to the bathroom after 30-minutes of trying, once I was done my body literally drained of all energy, that I ended up laying on the bathroom floor. My eyes stung with the bright light, my body was aching with all the cuts and bruises, I could have happily of drifted off to sleep and never woken up again. These past few days had affected my body both physically and emotionally

I closed my eyes then my mind started going places I never enjoyed going, I started thinking about her, how did our relationship go from caring to so much hate because of one incident a few years ago. I never meant to hurt her, I never meant for things to turn out the way they did. It wasn't my fault, but over the years I started to blame myself, then the blame turned into self-hate, then the self-hate turned into feeling completely worthless, I gave up and completely submitted to the life that was handed to me, I accepted it.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't hear the door open, I felt arms underneath my body lifting me up, I winced in pain as the movement opened another cut on my back "shh, its OK kitten"

That voice, that voice that holds so much calmness, yet can be filled with such venom. My eyes were struggling to open, even more so when she lay my body on the bed, comfort soothed my back and the pain suddenly started to drift away.

I felt hands upon my chest, my hand quickly smacked it away, my eyes shot open so fast that fear took over. Fear of what she was about to do and fear for what I just did.

"I won't hurt you" fear surprisingly left and was replaced with something unfamiliar.

She must have noticed my body relax as she lifted her hands again, she started to undo the buttons on my shirt slowly, I was looking at her fingers move across the buttons and when her finger grazed my skin goosebumps immediately rose across my chest. I closed my eyes trying to calm my nerves and when I opened them I looked at her to find her eyes trained on my own. Again, I was captivated by her stare, she never left my eyes once as her fingers worked to undo my buttons, when she finally undone the last one she pulled my shirt open. I was highly aware that I was not wearing a bra, I can't even remember the last time I did. I was expecting her eyes to wonder but still they held my gaze.

She leaned over my body hooking her arms undermine, her eyes finally breaking contact when her face was beside mine, I felt her breath on my neck while my eyes were fixed to ceiling, my breath was becoming more and more shallow. Instinctively I lifted my arms so that they were softly holding her biceps, I don't know why this position made me feel on edge. She gently lifted my body upwards so that I was sitting. She held my body there, while I thought was she going to moved away she didn't. If I turned my head towards her my face would have been in her neck. I was so close to her I could smell her intoxicating scent. What was happening to me

It was her who moved her face towards mine, my own following her lead. The corners of our eyebrows touching, any further my lips would have touched hers. This unfamiliar feeling was starting to take over my body, I wanted her lips on mine.

She pulled her arms away from mine then brought them to my shoulders, her thumbs now touching my skin heat radiated over my body once more. She slowly moved my shirt down, taking my arms out of the sleeves, this slow and torturous action was taking place while her face was in the same position, she slowly moved her head so that we were now fully facing each other with our foreheads resting against one another. I dared glance towards her eyes, noticing her eyes flicker from my lips to my eyes once more. I wondered if she was repulsed by my face, i know it was battered bruised cut to pieces.

My heart was banging against my chest I am surprised if she didn't hear it. I was frozen in place, I couldn't move. She lifted her head slightly then I felt her lips graze my own, it wasn't a kiss, but it felt like the whole world stopped for that brief moment, my eyes fluttered shut not knowing what to do next. I felt her soft lips move across my own until they found my cheek, I felt her hot breath on my face, I could have sworn I heard a small hum come from her throat, then as if my skin burnt her lips she moved away. I kept my eyes closed trying to savor and remember the feeling of her lips on mine.