Deadly Eyes - Swanqueen

Part 14

"your son?" she said in surprise "y-you have a son?"

I couldn't look at her in the eyes and I knew whatever she was thinking or feeling I would be able to tell by looking at her, I just nodded while looking at my thumb which I was clenching hard. I saw her hand move to cover mine

"tell me"

"Henry would be about 6 right now, I think"

"you think?" she acted surprised

"Yes, Regina, I think. You forget I just got my memories back yes?" I didn't mean to snap but I was so nervous to speak about him to her "I am sorry"

"shh don't apologise" she rubbed her thumb over the back of my hand

"you know what the funny thing is Regina" I looked at her in the eyes "all this time, I thought he was my nephew" I saw her eyes widen with shock

"oh my god, she didn't" it was then that I felt the tears stream down my face

"she took him away from me, I remember being pregnant. I remember giving birth, the last thing I remember is her coming in the room with two men two weeks after Henry was born, they beat me so bad while she stood in the corner holding my son watching" I felt Regina's arms wrap around my shoulders pulling me into her arms. I finally let go of all my emotion and cried into her chest.

"shh its ok, I have you now, nothing is going to happen to you again I promise"

"they must have beaten me so bad that it must have been then that I lost my memory. I just remember waking up and not remembering anything. It was horrific Regina, I don't ever want to feel that again. But now that I remember its so painful. Losing you, losing my family and losing Henry"

She sat there just holding me until I managed to calm down, I knew she wants to ask me he big question but I also know she is scared to push me away

"I didn't love him" she pulled away slightly, looking at me confused "the father"

"oh" I saw her jaw clench

"all cards on the table right?" she closed her eyes and nodded "he took advantage of me, she tried to pretend he was on my side, telling me he would help me escape, I didn't believe him at first, I didn't trust anyone. Until he found me one night pushed against a wall by some man, he pushed the man off me and beat him up in right there. I thought he was doing it because he cared" I felt my throat become dry as I haven't thought of this for so long "I was so stupid"

"don't say that Emma, you were in an impossible position" she was rubbing my back refusing to move away from me

"I didn't want to be with anyone Regina, you were on my mind every minute of every day, when I was getting forced upon, I closed my eyes and thought of you, it was my only escape"

"tell me what happened" she whispered

"he came to me one night, telling me he was going to get me out of there, I started to believe him, so I agreed, but before he would help me he said I had to let him do something in return" I cringed at the memory

"he told you, you had to have sex with him, right?" I heard the anger in her voice

"right" I nodded

It was silent for a few more moments, I let her gather her thoughts before I spoke again

"I hadn't given anyone my consent Regina, I couldn't, and it was no different with him, even if I believed I would never see you again, I was always yours and giving myself to something would somehow take that away. So, I said no"

"you said no" she took my face in her hands and it was then that I noticed the tears rolling down her face, I lifted my hand and gently ran my thumb against her cheek wiping them away "did he hurt you"

"yes" I whispered

"I will kill him" she said through clenched teeth

I pulled her towards me and placed my lips on hers, I felt her calm instantly, I pulled away and wrapped my arms around her neck holding her as close as possible.

"you don't need too" I softly spoke

"what do you mean" I held her tightly, should I tell her had already done what she so craved right now "Emma, no one hurts my girl and gets away with it, I will hunt down every last person that has hurt you over the years, starting with him"

"you have already started" she slowly pulled back looking at me with those oh so deadly eyes, I saw the fire burning inside of them

"the man I shot when you first came to me"

I nodded "you started saving my life the second you came back into it, I only just remembered this morning it was him, he tortured me for years Regina"

"well I am glad I've made a start baby" we both smiled with your teary face bringing our lips together once more.

"I want to get Henry back" I said with such conviction

"and we shall, I promise you Emma, no harm will come to you or him" I could see the honestly in her eyes

"so, you don't care he won't be ours?" I said sadly

"he is part of you Emma, and I already love him without meeting him" We hadn't even spoken about the future or what would happen next, but I somehow knew that things would be OK.

"one step at a time" I said

"one step at a time Emma"

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A/N I know these are mega short chapters but I don't have time to write lengthy ones right now. Until I can I hope this is OK for you all :)