Deadly Eyes - Swanqueen

Part 15

"I have to go back" I turned over in bed to face Regina

"why, why cant we stay here?" she sat up holding her head in her hands

"Emma, I am sorry but I need to go back, I have stayed here longer than I should have, my mother will start asking questions and I need to figure things out"

"what things" I asked as I sat up next to her

"just things Emma" she snapped, I jumped and pulled my hand back that I was about to rub her back with and held my hands together, I looked downwards and felt the bed move slightly next to me "look at me" I couldn't I just kept my head down "I'm sorry Emma I didn't mean to snap, but you have to understand I cant just stay here"

"make me understand then" I heard her sigh "I don't want you to go back there, you haven't even told me what's been on your mind, you have somehow only managed to make me talk"

"Emm.."

"no, tell me what's so damn important you need to go back there for?" I finally looked at her to see her face frowning, I could tell she wanted to tell me something, but something was holding her back

"urgh...why do you need to know, can't you trust me to sort things out" I could see anger in her eyes

"I do trust you, I trust you with my life, but I also think you should trust me with whatever is on our mind and the thought of you going back there pulls my stomach in half" I looked down again taking a deep breath before I spoke "is, is it for him?"

"I will never do anything for him Emma" she said with such authority in her voice

"you kissed him, in front of me. I-I know I didn't want to talk about it before, b-but I want to know" I felt heard her sigh but before she had a chance to speak I spoke first "and ruby"?

Her eyes widened at the mention of Ruby "w-hat about Ruby"

"I heard you, outside the bedroom door, it sounded like you were wel.." she cut me off before I could finish that sentence

"no" she grabbed my hand "you have this all wrong, please please believe me Emma"

I pulled my hand back and brought my knees up to my chest "I am so confused Regina, just make my head clear again, make me understand"

"OK, when I joined my mother's business I was ruthless, I distanced myself so much from everyone I cared about after what happened with you. I went down a dangerous road. My mother used my anger for her benefit. You have to understand Emma, I thought you were dead" I looked up to her as I felt her voice starting to waver, I placed my hand over hers not saying anything back, just wanting her to know I was here

"after a few months of following and learning from mother, one of her colleagues took an interest in me. He had tried to take advantage of me constantly, but I always managed to get away from him. I told my mother about it, but she told me I could use my womanhood to my own advantage and become powerful. She told me men would fall at my feet and do anything for me if took control of it. So she told me to use him as guinea pig, so I did.

I flirted, promised him the world, in the meantime other men started to approach me in the mansion over the course of 2 years, I started to gain some sort of respect from them, I have no idea how, I am sure it was my mother's influence. But I think it was also to do with the fact that I didn't whore myself around, I never let anyone touch me. One night my mother held a party, almost all of the heads of the most powerful families in the state was there and then some, it was filled with power hungry wealthy people. I remember staying beside my mother all night not giving people the time or day. Until the man that my mother told me to use to my advantage managed to get me alone, he new I was using him, he tried to take advantage of me again and this time he nearly did, my dress was torn and I was bleeding from my lip" I lifted my hand up to her lips and traced her scar with my hand.