Deadly Eyes - Swanqueen

Part 16

4 days, 4 damn days I have been stuck in this house waiting for Regina to come back. She promised me she will be back, she assured me she would, but I can't help but worry she won't come back to me.

4 days I have been going out of my mind, although I have my memories back, which means I know where we are, and if I wanted to, I could walk out this house and be stood outside my parents' house in 30minutes, but something always stopped me from stepping out the house. It took me a while to figure it out what it was, but after a while the same thing kept creeping back into my mind every single time...Lily

When I was younger I was confident, I was never one shy away from new people, I never blushed or stuttered. But the moment she teared me away from Regina and my family was the moment she started to chip away at my inner self, she battered and bruised me, not just on the outside but inside too. There was a reason I couldn't speak to Killian when I saw him, she has utterly destroyed me.

The thought of stepping outside this house filled me with so much dread. I was afraid. My mind was playing tricks on me, my mind was telling me that Regina wouldn't return, I was going rot here alone. She would realise I wasn't worth it, she would realise she loved this other man and never loved me. Every single time I thought this my chest tightened, I felt like a million beetles were scratching under my skin to escape.

4 days I have sat on this sofa waiting, I haven't eaten, I haven't slept. I was completely and utterly broken.

I was afraid.

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I was sat with my head hung low, I was so weak, I felt so defeated, I was alone!

I heard a car come closer, I then heard 2 doors shut then shuffling of footsteps outside of the house. I sat in the dark completely still. My eyes were trained to the floor. My hand was clenching my thumb tight.

I heard the key in the door and the front door open. Light filled the room causing my eyes to shut tight. I felt a hand on my chin pulling my head up "open your eyes" I heard her soft voice.

Was I dreaming, she couldn't be here with me, could she? She wasn't coming back, I finally made myself believe she wasn't.

"Emma" I heard someone else's voice, who is that "Regina is she ok"

"I-I don't know" I felt someone wrap their arms around my shoulders "come on baby, let's get you to bed" I put all my energy into getting up that when I stood up everything suddenly went black as my knees finally gave way

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"mmm" I felt soft fingers gently stroking my face, I slowly opened my eyes to find those delicious eyes I have always loved staring right back to me, but then a sudden wave of emotion flowed through my body and tears fell from my eyes

"you came back" was all I could say

"I did, I will always come back, did you think I wouldn't?" I looked at her frowning face, I suddenly felt guilty for thinking she wouldn't

I nodded "she has broken me Gina" I felt her arms wrap around me and pull me to her chest

"I'm sorry, I am so sorry. I won't leave you again"

I cried in her arms, feeling the comfort radiate from her, I never wanted to be without her again was the last thought I had before I drifted back to sleep.

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I woke up to find the bed empty. I heard people talking in the other room then the door opened slowly "you're awake"

I smiled "I am" she walked towards me and sat on the edge of the bed taking my hand in hers "who is here?"

"Ruby and Robin" my eyes widened