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why? : mara

3:30 am. he's still not home. how could he do this to you? your mind had been down the hole for a while now. there was no way he wasn't cheating on you, making you feel like a fool.

it wasn't the first time, and it wasn't going to be the first time he would lie to you about it. his excuse this time would probably be 'there was way too much traffic'.

your heart swelled as you sighed, sinking deeper into the couch waiting for nick. beads of tears started to form in your eyes. you couldn't say it out loud but you knew that this wasn't healthy. it was a damn cycle. nick would cheat on you, you would break up, he'd tell you he misses you, you guys get back together, and it repeats itself. it has happened too many times that you've actually lost count.

your friends would try to tell you it wasn't good for you, but you wouldn't listen. even your best friend couldn't convince you it was wrong to stay in the relationship. you were too into him to listen, too in love.

your thoughts trailed on to how much pain this one man has caused you in a span of 8 months, making you cry even more. your thoughts came to a jolting stop as the front door to your apartment opened and slammed shut, as if he didn't even care if you were asleep.

"so you're just gonna slam the door like you're the only one who lives here?" you were frustrated, with yourself and him.

"shit- what the fuck man? were you waiting on me or some shit?" your stern voice startled him.

"yes actually, i've been waiting for a while now. what you took you so long, why are you home so late?"

"bae you don't gotta worry bout me. the traffic was crazy today." you scoffed at his answer. it was just what you expected to come out of his mouth.

"what's wrong with you? are you in a bitchy mood because i'm not in the fucking mood to deal with it, y/n."

tears spilled down your cheeks as you cried in frustration. "can you cut the act, please? i know where you've been." nick turned around to face you.

"then please enlighten me. where have i been." he was getting annoyed.

"do you really think i'm that fucking stupid. you're a fucking man whore. do you think i don't know that you've been cheating on me?! you can't be loyal to no one in your life," your voice started to shake, "not even to the person who has put up with your bullshit! not even to the person who kept coming back in hopes that you had changed your fucking ways!"

"if you know i'm not gonna change then why the fuck do you put up with all the 'bullshit' i put you through," his voice bounced from wall to wall, "why the fuck do you keep coming back to me?!"

"because i fucking love you!" you screamed.

you both went silent. the ticking of the clock on the wall filled the room. nick looked at you with soft eyes, wanting to pull you into his embrace. but something stopped him, guilt. it consumed his body from head to toe. a tear fell down his cheek. in your eyes he looked dumbfounded, as if he didn't know why you kept coming back, as if he didn't know how much you loved him.

"i-i'm sorry." nick uttered, making you smile in disbelief.

"yeah i am too." you frantically wiped the tears off your cheek.

"y/n, let's start over, please. i-i can't lose you again." he pleaded, causing you to laugh.

  "you already have, way too many damn times."

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hey, guysss :)
been way too fucking long, but i'm back (hopefully)! there's probably going to be a part 2 to this soo yeah. i have a new book out go check out the casting of it, it's gonna be lit (i hope). anyway imma go work on another imagine
byeee :p
~jayden