I'm on my Own
Not at Home
Never was loved by
The family around me
It didn't seem
Like anyone would care
If I was dead
The very next day
And they can't see
They can't see
The true me,
Suicidal
Depression
Alone
Dead
I'm hiding
And they can't see
The only time I'm me
Is around my ❤️ love
And they don't know
That I'm alone
At home
And I feel like I'm
On my own
But they don't know
That when I'm at home
I think about
All the dark thoughts
All the secrets
That I hold
Gaining more
Every day
They don't know
What I do
During the night when
They are all
Sleeping
They don't know
What I hold
When I'm crying
Falling apart
They don't know
Why I cry
They don't know why
I'm dead inside
I'm all alone
I cry at night
Screaming on the inside
Wanting to cut
But not enough strength
Not enough Courage
To just do it
Thoughts of death
Make me calm
Thinking of ropes
Hanging from the ceiling
Thinking of knives
Looking as if we're stained permently
Thinking of guns
Empty and on the ground
All with one thing with them,
Me
