team 10

im fine

a/n; surprise bb's I'm back!
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logan loves me, i replay in my mind.
i have anthony but, logan still loves me. ive did so much to him. i don't deserve him, but he loves me.

i step out of my bed, throw my hair in a messy bun and walk down stairs.
i sit at the counter, and hear........silence? how? it's always loud. oh well, house to myself. no distractions, just a peaceful..
"knock, knock"
"of course" i say walking to the door.
"hey"
"hey, logan" i say trying to hide my sleepy face.
"stop hiding, may i come in?"
"sure" I say opening the door.
"how are you feeling?"
"im fine logan" i say.
"Wait what do you mean?" I ask confused
"you don't know, then it's not my place to tell you"
"Logan just tell me" I say.
"anthony, and Tessa are together"
"youre kidding me?" I say feeling my whole mood change.
"no." he places his arm around me embracing me.
i feel a tear escape my eye.
"forget it" I say. i pull Logan's chin around me and i push my lips forcefully onto his.
"alyssa, i can't take advantage of you"
"i want this logan."
He smashes his lips into mine and finally the thoughts and hurts i once had felt gone.
I pull myself around to where I'm straddling him.
He slips his arms under my shirt and with a swift motion he pulls it off.
He puts his warm lips against my bare neck, and sucks lightly.

and of course, my phone rings.
i ignore it at first but Logan tells me to answer it.

"hello"
"alyssa?" A female voice says.
"depends whos asking"
"this is dr. yang, you came in because of your stomach the other day correct?"
"Yes ma'am"
"i have upsetting news, we found that you have lymphoma cancer ."
"that can't be right"
"i wish it wasn't"
"Oh my god" I begin to cry
"call us back and schedule an appointment soon, again im very sorry"
beep.

no. no. no.
"alyssa, are you alright"
"logan... i have cancer." i say crying.
"Oh my god" he says embracing me.
"come stay at my place, so i can take care of you, i won't ever leave you i promise. I'll love you no matter what."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, more sure than I've ever been"
"Will you help me pack"
"ill pack for you."

we walk upstairs and Logan empties all of my clothes out of my closet into bags.
i get all of my stuff. everything I've payed for, i threw Anthony's hoodie in his room.

              im ready to leave.