Secret Affair (Harry Styles)

Chapter Eighteen

Marissa's P.O.V

Shocked. My goddamn mouth was hanging wide open as I stare at him.

Him? Falling in love with me? I want to laugh at him and tell him how much complicated things are.

"You? Fallen in love with me?" I ask in disbelief. He can't, can he? I pointed at him then back at me as I chuckled disbelievingly.

He nods. "Did I stutter?"

I shut my eyes hoping all of this was just a dream. When I open my eyes I realized that all of this was happening, the worst is that I'm not dreaming.

"Harry.. You-you can't.." I trailed, he can't love me. Heck I don't want him falling for me.

"But.. I do.. I think I love you Riss." I shook my head and stare at him. His eyes were on mine and they were full of hope.

"Harry.. We can't.. Maybe, maybe you're just.. I don't know.. But we can't do this anymore. You can't fall in love with me. You're my foster father and fuck, I'm your daughter. You can't cheat on Beth. I don't love you Harry..." I said the words calm as possible. I want to run in his arms and just soothe him. But I can't do that, heck. I can't even look at him.

"No Rissa, I know you love me. We can do this. We just need to be carefull. Ok?" he reassured, I shake my head and back away. I need to go away, away from him and the drama.

"Harry.. Listen to me.." he look at me.

"I want you to move on ok? I want you to keep faithful to you're wife. My mum. Harry you can't cheat on her. She's too kind to be cheated on.." I explained. I can't believe I'm saying this words. I want to tell him that I love him too but.. I just don't think I can do this to Liz and to Ashton. I look up at Harry and he has tears in his eyes. I swallow as my eyes betrayed me from watering too.

"Please." he pleaded. I shook my head and slowly walk towards him.

"Harry.. No. The feelings are not mutual." Yes, they are.

"But.."

I stopped him and put my index finger gently on his lips, shushing him. "No but's Harry.. I'm moving out. You need to move on. You can forget about us ok? You have Liz and I have Ashton."

He stubbornly shook his head. "We can go behind their backs, they don't need to know." As much as I want to say yes, I can't. I fucking can't.

"Harry just plea-" I didn't even finish my sentence as I'm back against the wall as he kiss me gently on the lips. I didn't move my lips as he urged me to kiss him back.

"Kiss me." he demand, his hand were on the side of my waist. I shook my head.

"Fuck, Rissa. Just kiss me back ok? I promise when you kiss me back. I promise to just.. Move on." he looked at me in the eye as I not expect him to agree, but it have other condition.

I sigh as I kiss him back passionately. Our lips molded together as tingles shot through my entire body. I push him closer by grabing his neck. Our chest touch and his crotch met mine.

He groans and started sucking at my neck, he plant wet kisses on my collarbones as I moan.

"Harry." I groan as he nibble on my ear.

"Its so fucking sexy hearing you moan my name." he said, his words suddenly turned me on. I grab his bulge as I rub my hands, palming it.

"Shit." he curses.

His hand rested on my thigh. "Jump baby." I do as I told and jump. I wrap my legs around his waist as he pulled our bodies closer. He started kissing me again as I kiss him back eagerly.

My body was betraying me by wanting him. I want him. I need him. I want to feel him inside of me.

He opens the door with one hand still kissing me. He gently lay me on the bed, so he's on top of me.

"Goodnight." he kisses my forehead. He stood up and let go of me. I frown and grab his collar.

"Where are you going?" I ask pouting.

He gave me a confused look and chuckled shaking his head.

"To my room?"

"Why?"

"Because I sleep there?"

"Why are you leaving?" I cross my arms over my chest. Sitting up from my position.

"Because I had to. I'm sure you don't want me here." I sighed heavily.

"Don't leave please." He smirk.

"Bipolar huh?" I roll my eyes and scoff.

"No, I'm not."

"Yes you are, last minute you're telling me to move on. But now you're telling me to stay in here." he points. "with you." he added.

"Can you please just stay?" I whined. He laughs and moves to the bed beside me. I scoot away so he can have a space as he wrap his arms around my shoulders and pulls me into his chest.

"Move on huh?" he teased. I blush as he laugh.

"Don't laugh at me!" I scolded, hitting him in the chest. Our legs werw tangled as he played with me hair.

"Do you mean that?" he ask, breaking the silence. I look up at him and furrow my brows.

"Mean what?" I can tell that he's serious about the topic.

"That.. That you said.. That I.. Need to move on." he burst out laughing again as I roll my eyes.

"Fuck you." I spat. I somehow find myself laughing along with him. I place my cheek in his chest as he hums. He stopped humming and ask something.

"Why do you always have nightmares?" he ask.

I cleared my throath before speaking. "I don't know. I guess I always get that when I'm stressed or extremely knackered. I first get that when my father died." My heart leaps at the memory of my father.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have ask that."

I kept a straight face. "Yeah you shouldn't." I spat.

His eyes grew wide as he stutters. "I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to-"

I cut him off by laughing, knowing he was fooled. By me.

"I thought I made you angry and upset!" he laughs.

"Well I'm a great actor." I said back.

He shush me as I stopped laughing. "Go to sleep or I'm going to fuck you." I gasp and hit him in the chest. My cheeks blush as I hide in his sides making him let out a breathy laugh.

***

I opened my eyes and blinked twice as I hear voices downstairs. I groan as Harry called me.

"I'm up!" I yelled in annoyance, I was a bit upset that Harry wasn't in my side anymore.

I look at myself in the mirror as I rolled my eyes. As ussual my hair was sticking in different directions. I grav the ponytail on my study table and tie my hair into a bun.

I walk to the bathroom and brush my teeth.

I hurried downstairs still in my pajamas. "Harry? Where are you?" I called out.

"In here love! Kitchen!" he shouted back, ah. I guess he was making me breakfast. How.... Sweet?

I headed to the kitchen and mentaly curse.

"Hi, Rissa. I haven't seen you in what seems like forever?" she giggled and walk towards me wrapping his arms around my body.

"Why are you already back yet, Liz?"

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