Ezria: a new era

New beginning?

Ezra's P.O.V

I heard a knock at my door and walked over as slowly as possible from my bed. I could almost guarantee it won't be Aria, which just gave me more reason to hate whoever was on the other side of the door.

"Ezra! Open up!" Aria's sweet sounding voice said urgently from the other side of the door.

Like I said, I could almost guarantee. I was extremely surprised to see her in the doorway. "What are you doing here? I- I thought you-"

"I just had to come and see you. Ezra what the hell is going on?" She asked in that tone that means "now" while chucking her jacket on my bench and putting her hands on her hips. I'd be lying if I said this didn't turn me on in the slightest way. "Why do you act like you don't love me?"

"What do you mean, you know I love you with all my heart Ar." I said in astonishment.

"No you don't Ezra! You never have! Why do you treat me like shit?!" Aria suddenly broke down in tears and pushed over a stool next to her with a lot of energy.

I didn't understand why everything was going so quickly, why she broke down like that, and why she didn't believe I loved her. Was I that bad a boyfriend before? Did I really not show any love, ever?

"Why did you even bother with me! It was just for purely sexual reasons, wasn't it?!" Aria sneered whilst glaring me down.

"Aria, it was never like that..." I quickly said, reaching out and embracing her in a warm hug. I started to think about what she mentioned though, and quickly stopped, knowing where that would lead.

She seemed to warm into me for a second but pushed me away, hard.

"I don't want your pathetic hug." Aria snottily said, grabbing her jacket and walking out again, pissed off.

"Aria!" I sat up in my bed and yelled for her. I looked around, what happened?

Thank god that was just a dream. I was a decent boyfriend before the miscarriage, right? I just wasn't there to support her then, that's when I was a bad boyfriend.

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I was on my way to get coffee for myself and bring one over to Aria's place so we could talk. We needed to talk.

Instead of her finding me first, I needed to do it first. I need to show her how much I love her and that it's not going to change. Hell, if I'm still in love with her after three years of being apart I can guarantee that I want to marry her and have babies with her, and grow old together. She needs to know that.

My dream was like a wake up call, I can't let her think I don't love her.

Over in the corner she sat in the brew, reading a book and looking hesitantly up every 10 seconds as if to see anyone watching her. She didn't see me though watching her hot body, her gorgeous face... that looked a little dark, like a bruise fading.

I walked over and stood above her, seeing Aria jump in fear and look up, only to calm slightly.

"Are you okay?" I asked, getting a little worried now. Why was she so terrified?

Aria smiled up at me reassuringly with a lot of effort. "Yes I'm okay." She said simply as I sat down.

This crushed me a little, seeing as how she didn't confide in me. I chalked it up to not being together in three years, but I wondered if she was scared of somebody, or was just done with me?

No, I wouldn't let that happen.

"Aria, you can tell me." I put a hand over hers and watched her flip out a little, as her eyes widened.