I'm not in a good state of my mind right now that I need to find something to distract myself. Which is also means I have to cut off myself from my beloved people for the sakes of not for me to hurt them. I'm sorry. I'm not good with myself. I'm sorry that I exist. I'm sorry that I have enter your life. I'm sorry that I have burden you. I'm sorry that you think my existence makes your life miserable. I'm sorry for not being good enough. I'm sorry for not being the way you wanted me to be. I'm sorry that I had ever hurt you. I'm sorry that I don't even know myself. I'm sorry that I don't love myself and can't even love myself. I'm sorry that because of me your life is hectic. I'm sorry that God gives me the chances to live in his world. I'm sorry that God makes me His creation. I'm sorry that I have been your bad influence. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry being an asshole. I'm sorry that my mom had to carry me for 9 months; a wasteful 9month. I'm sorry that I couldn't be perfect. I'm sorry for being a bad friend. I'm sorry for being a bad sister. I'm sorry for everything because I couldn't stop this.
Forgive me.
