Grayson
Is the boy that lives across my street.
Quiet kid, doesn't really talk much or go out any, but here lately when I go to work or come back from work I see him walking, I can feel him staring at me.
One day I decided to say a simple "hey" and that's where it started.
We managed to build a simple friendly relationship, I got him to talk more.
Ethan, his brother, who is totally different from him, told me that he has a small "crush" on me. He took his time to tell me that he is a bit different from everyone else, which I already knew, and that he is very sensitive so be very careful around him.
This was practically old news to me, but I agreed with him anyways.
Grayson was attractive but I didn't like him like that, that I knew of at the time, I only liked him as a friend, I know he's going through some shit and I try to be there for him.
I'm getting out of my car when I hear "y/n" I turn around and see Grayson.
"Hey what's up."
"Uh, nothing. I just, I wanted you to have this."
He brings his arm from behind his back reveling a cassette tape
"Oh! thank you so much."
"Ah it's nothin, it's just a bunch of my favorite songs from my favorite band, just wanted you to have it."
I give him a quick hug and proceed to thank him.
"Well, uh I gotta go, my mom has supper done, see ya tomorrow?"
"Yeah, yeah" he says before making his way back up the street.
He seemed different
I was on my way home from work, I turn into the neighborhood and notice cops everywhere along with an ambulance. They were at his house. I pull into my drive way and examining the scene.
I see his family outside and I make eye contact with Ethan, he's standing there in the yard with his hand over his mouth along with his mom who is crying uncontrollably.
As soon as I see the look on Ethan's face I know that something is terribly wrong.
I get out of my car, tears welling up in my eyes. I make my way over to his house.
I walk up to Ethan and he gives me a devastating look. I see them bring a stretcher out of the house, and even though I can't see the body I know that it is in fact Grayson.
He hanged himself
I hug Ethan as I continue to cry, which makes him start sobbing.
1 week after
I put the tape into my cassette player, and continue to listen.
It's tame impala
"Everything is changing
And there's nothing I can do
My world is turning pages
While I am just sitting here."
I start to remember all of the conversations that we had and how he was always there for me.
We helped each other and had so much fun.
But it was much more deeper than that for him.
I realized that I did love him, I just didn't know it.
Now it's too late
All I can do is just sit there and cry, I should have done more to save the love of my life.
The boy across the street.
