Oct 25 2017 wednesday
I decided to have you back. To be with you again. And you did too. I couldn't be happier.
But as I knew that you contacted and made new girl-friends, I was crushed. Totally crushed that I felt you didn't want me anymore.
You agreed though that we would be together again but then as I think about it. I was being so selfish that I would restrict you of your new found friends just because they were women. And yet it hurts me that I can't do anything because I have no right over you. Because I left you in the first place. And so I suggested that we would take things slow this time. Because you have stuff to do and I the same. We both needed to change. We both needed to be apart. But we both wanted to be together.
I always accuse you and push you to your girl friends because I was jealous that they made you happy and not me. So I would get angry at you but then again, guilt hits and then I would want to let you go and surrender you to them. You also accused me of getting in to your account which for the 2nd time I didn't.
Oct 26 2017 thursday
My push and pull continues. Plus, with you constantly not answering my calls, late replys and short and annoyed messages made me think that you were really annoyed and you had enough of me. So I let you go and then later would want you back. I cannot decide for myself so I let you decide, you decided to just go with the flow and just let time take its place. Which by the way was my original idea but it hurt knowing it came from you. From someone you thought also loved and cared for you. I was still trying to push you to your chatmates but I also couldn't let you go. I just couldn't do it. I would always imagine my future with you but I can't, it is impossible. So yes, i would annoy you with stupid accusations even though I also had my share of male friends, I was selfish. So after that I would let you go agian. This push and pull concept was very annoying and hassle for you. So you wanted to let go and I respected it. It just hurts to think that the reason you cannot communicate enough is because of them other girls but then I didn't put to mind that you had a job.
Debating to be with you or not,
xL
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Letters To Romeo
Chick-LitWarning this is not a love story. A twist to one of the most loved tragic romances of all time. These are Just letters to my dear Romeo that I am hoping he'll read someday, wherever he is right now.
