MAJOR

MAJOR |2|

                I'm sitting in my car right now... smoking on this killer weed, man this shit is killing me.. thinking bout these memories. Just thinking bout the times we shared and all the shit you did for me.. nobody could fill your shoes, the world stopped when I lost you.. I'm stressing with these tears rolling down my face, cause I'm thinking but those days. - PNB Rock (Missing You)

I don't think anybody feels my pain. They keep telling me that shit will get better and that time heals everything but In my opinion, some shit hurts forever. I went and got R.I.P Caleb Simir Johnson Tatted on me.

Even though I already had his name and Ciyon's and Imani's on me. I went and got it on my chest. It's been three weeks since his funeral. It's only gotten worse though. Pior had the babies.

My mama says she wants to get an DNA test, but I think that if Caleb was here he couldn't deny those girls. Pior named them Cayla and Cemani. She says that her and Caleb picked those names when he was here.

They look just like him. I'm mad that my brother was killed at such an young age. He's only twenty. Ciyon is twenty one and I'm twenty three.

I'm mad that he was killed period. I just wish he was here with us. I wish he was here to experience being a father too. My nieces won't have their daddy in their life and that shit is the worst.

"Bae you ok?" Ant asks breaking me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah I'm fine." I reply drinking some of my water.

"Everything go be good. I promise, I got you." He says hugging me. I close my eyes and sigh. I remember when I got to Caleb's casket. Seen his casket rolling down into the ground and I was done.

I lost it completely. I cried so hard to the point to where as though I couldn't breathe. I didn't think I would make it. Shit is the worst when you lose yo blood.

"I'm finna go handle some business real quick baby. I'm go look more into the situation." He says kissing me. I watch him walk out and I get under the covers and get ready for a nap.

- -

"Hello?" I spoke clearing my voice. It's like people just been blowing my phone up. I hate being woken up out of my sleep.

"This Major?" A girl asks. I roll my eyes. Bitch you know who this is you called my phone.

"Yeah. Why wassup? Who looking for me?"

"Oh no.. I'm just calling to let you know that I'm fucking yo nigga. Ant right? Yeah."

I sit up in bed. "I hope you not playing on my phone. You dead serious right now sis? What's yo name?"

"My name Layla. I'm dead serious. I didn't call to start no trouble or anything, seriously. I just feel as though you needed to know. I heard about yo brother too. Sorry for yo lost."

This bitch finna make me come through this phone and knock her head off her shoulders on my mama.

"Don't speak on my brother. How long you and Ant been fucking?"

"A year now. I met him that same night of yo little sister birthday party when she turned fifteen I believe." She says. This nigga had the audacity to meet this bitch at my sister birthday party.

"Girl you sure? I don't wanna kill him and then you lying." I say. "Girl I'm sure. I saw yo number in his phone so I just put yo number in my phone. He just left by the way."

I hang up in her ear as soon as I hear the front door shut. I put my hair into a ponytail and stand up from the bed.

"Where you finna go?"