MAJOR

MAJOR |10|

It's okay not to be okay.. -Jessie J (Who You Are).

I'm sitting here at my photography studio. It was an amazing shoot last week. I'm just now getting the pictures back though. I'm so proud of myself. I've really been holding myself together. I know Caleb looking down smiling his ass off, I miss my baby boy more than anything in this world.

I still can't believe they killed my brother. Until this day don't nobody know how I feel, I literally been through hell and back times two. Caleb dying was the worst. I still can't stomach it.. them niggas who did it took my soul. They don't know what they did to me.

Time heals nothing it just replays memories. Even though I'm holding shit together and getting through it all. I'm stressed the fuck out, I got people who depend on me so I can't give up but they don't know what I'm going through.

The pressure on your shoulders is so heavy when you gotta make sure everybody is straight. I got this though. Me and my siblings always say we gone make our mama proud. I'm finna stand on that shit.

"You good Maj?" The photographer Mike asks snapping me out of my thoughts. "Yeah I'm good. I'm finna get out of here." I say putting the pictures in my purse and standing pullin' my dress down in the process. Nigel hates this dress too.

After walking the fuck up out of there I went and got in my car. I guess I'm gonna go see Ciyon and see what he got going on. I'm bored and Nigel out somewhere, probably doing something his big ass ain't got no business doing.

I really would hope not because I will fuck him up. Really bad, I still can't believe that Ant fuck with Nigel babymama. That shit is bad, they whole situation is messy. I pull in front of Ciyon's door and get out pressing the lock button on my key.

This part of Atlanta ghetto as hell, even though Ciyon got the best house on the block I wouldn't dare moving over here. I knock on the door and he opens up with nothin but basketball shorts and socks on.

"Hey baby." I say hugging him and kissing his cheek. I push pass him and throw my purse on the couch and kick my sandals off. "Hey sis." He says shutting the door.

"What you was doing before I came?" I ask laying on the couch and turning love and hip hop on. He shakes his head. "Iyoki and Mahogany upstairs." He says making me smirk.

"What happened to Bahia?" I ask. "She moved back in with her mom and dad. They let her come back cause they say they don't want her to be stressing while she pregnant." He says shrugging his shoulders like he don't give a fuck.

Iyoki comes downstairs holding Mahogany who looks like she's wide awake. "Hey Major." She smiles walking over to the couch I'm on and sitting next to me. "Hey girl, she sleep?" I ask.

She nods her head and then hands my niece to me. I love my baby girl, she look just like Imani I swear she do. My family got some strong ass genes on my mom. "We be right back Maj." Ciyon says walking into the guest room that's down here with Iyoki.

I grab the remote and turn the TV up loud so I can drown the sounds of them fucking all the way out. I don't wanna hear that shit. "I mindswell take a nap with you mamas." I say laying back on the couch and putting her on my chest and closing my eyes.

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  Nigel

    Some how some way we gotta make it out the hood someday, can't lie I still wake up and jug some days just to make sure that my family good some days.. -Pnb Rock

I'm sitting here on my bed counting my money, putting all this shit in a big ass duffle bag. Nolan running all around my room like he crazy. I swear he running off the walls like literally he jumping and flipping and shit, I'm finna do a flip on his ass if he don't sit the fuck down.

"Sit yo ass down Nolan. You finna go to sleep soon, turn on a movie until I'm done." I say calmly, Ion wanna yell at him but damn nigga. Calm yo hype ass the fuck down, shit.

I'm finishing up and he already sleep. I pick him up and put him into my bed and throw the cover over him. This boy look just like me, I swear on my his life I couldn't deny him if I wanted too. His mama might be a lil dumb when It come to Niggas but I salute her for my lil man.

I put the bag into the closet and grab my phone so I can call Major. Once I get to her contact I click on the FaceTime thing and she answers on the first ring. I look at her background before speaking. She at Ciyon house.

"You just woke up?" I ask. She nods her head yes.

"Come over. Daddy miss you." I say. "I'm on the way." She says sitting up fast as fuck making me laugh. She hangs up and I go get in the shower real quick. I really love her mane. It's like I never ever felt this type of love before.

Once I get out and go to my room, I see Major and Nolan sleep. I forgot she got a key. Her and Nolan, All cuddled up together. This nigga got his nerve with his arm wrapped around my bitch and his head on her lil ass tittes. I dry my body off and put some Eithaka's on and get into the bed pulling them closer to me.

They all I fucking need in life. I feel complete now.

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I wake up to see Major and Nolan eating. I don't know what the fuck Nolan saying. Maj just nodding her head like she know what he saying It's funny as hell. "Foreal?" She asks. He nods his head with wide eyes. "Oh my gosh." She says.

He puts another waffle in his mouth then drinks some orange juice from his cup. "Where mine at?" I ask sitting up. "In the kitchen. You need to go brush yo teeth yo breath stink." Major says drinking her juice. I roll my eyes and stand and go to the bathroom.

Major dirty ass always got some smart shit to say out her mouth. After pissing and brushing my teeth I head to the kitchen to get my food. I wanna do something with Major and Nolan today before I take him back to his mom.

"Brushed yo stank ass teeth?" Major asks walking into the kitchen breaking me out of my thoughts. She got on some panties and a tank top. Major can't be walking around Nolan freaky ass like that, he too nasty. I don't even know where he got that shit from.

"I sure did. Come here." I say patting my lap. She comes over and sits down and I kiss her neck. "I wanna do something today. With you and Nolan." She nods her head. I can tell that something been bothering her, knowing Major she ain't gone speak on it.

"What's wrong?" I ask rubbing her thigh. "Nothing." She mumbles picking at her nails. "I know it's something wrong talk to me." I say. "I miss my brother." She says above a whisper then starts to cry. I sigh and wrap my arms around her.

I miss my nigga too mane. Ciyon and Caleb been my niggas since kindergarten I swear on my mama n' em. My mom love her some Ciyon and Caleb. Me and my niggas did everything together, the bond was unbreakable.

I still can't believe it. "It's gonna be aight Major. I love you mane. I know it's hard and you going through it, you gotta keep on moving. Caleb wouldn't want you crying." I say rubbing her back.

"It's so hard. I got the world on my shoulders. I can't give up with my family depending on me." I kiss her cheek and wipe her eyes. I hate seeing her upset. It hurts me to see her hurting. "It's okay Major. Stop holding everything in. It's okay not to be okay." I say kissing her again.

I watch her wipe her eyes and get herself together on my lap. I love this girl so much I wouldn't give this shit up for all the money in the world. "You good baby? I'm here. Always I promise I ain't giving up on you." I say In her ear.