My Gun Atthaphan Haven

Tag Me Goodbye

"Tagged, you're it!" I said as I tapped her shoulders. We were playing like 10 year old kids at the park near her apartment, she did not want to go home yet so we decided to come here.

"Unfair! I just tagged you, I'm tired!" she sat down on the grass and tapped the space next to her telling me to take a sit, and I did. We have been going back and forth with tagging each other for about half an hour, it was fun at first but definitely tiring if it was only the two of us.

As the sun set, we decided to enjoy the great scenery surrounding us. Now, roaming around hand in hand, a sudden thought came to me; it was now or never. Seeing her smiling like this and knowing I'm about to break it, hurts me. But I need to do it, or it will only hurt the both of us more.

"Can we talk?" I asked her, stopping her from her tracks; sadness visible on her pretty face as soon as she looked at me, replacing the lovely smile she was carrying a while ago. She nods as she tightens her hold on my hand pulling me towards a nearby bench in the isolated part of the park. A small smile formed on her lips, not a fake one but definitely one that is filled with understanding.

Staring at me; waiting for me to speak, as if she knows what I am about to say, and she did. "It's about Gun, isn't it?" she beats me in to speaking first, confusion and shock lingers in me. "I know Off, I've known for so long" she smiled as a tear dropped from her eyes.

Wiping the tears with my thumbs, my hands cupping her cheeks and bringing our foreheads together; I am sorry and forgive me are the only words I could utter as I cry with her. I did not meant to hurt her, I do love her.

A few moments later with her head on my shoulder, a sign that we are alright, I decided to break off the silence that surrounds us and asked "How did you know?"

She sighed and snickered "Can't I have a few more minutes to enjoy the warmth of my ex-boyfriend before he bombards me with questions?" ending it with her lovely laugh. "For four years we've been together, I've never seen you look so...in love" she lifted her head from my shoulder and stared at me, once again, giving me a reassuring smile.

"I did love you, I still do" I explained, as if I'm begging her to understand that I was in love with her, but dumbfounded was I when she finally starts speaking again, hitting every nerve in me.

She smiled, a little laugh escaped from her lips "You did, Off" she took my hands and enveloped it with hers. "I did felt that within the years we were together that you really did love me, that you are in love with me" she let out a deep sigh, tightening her hold on my hands and continued "But never in love like how you are with him" I listened carefully, not wanting to miss even the smallest details of what she is saying. It may have been because it is about Gun or the fact that this may be the last time that I will be attentive to whatever she will say.

"Who would not like him or even fall for him?" she stated. "He has this charm that no one could resist, I admit" we smiled at each other, remembering the first time she met him, she could not take her eyes away from him; repeatedly saying he was cute.

"I know you so well, Off, too damn well" she let go of my hands, it ached me but I knew we had to let go sooner or it will hurt more if it was later. 

"You made sure that I won't feel neglected, jealous, or feel the need to seek attention within the times that the both of you are working together" she kept her eyes on her now free hands laying on her lap. "I loved that about you, you know?" all I could do right now was to give her a smile.

"I knew that you both tried so hard to ignore your feelings towards each other" hearing this from her is like a knife to my chest, I tried so hard to make sure she won't find out, tried so hard to let go of what I was feeling for him, tried so damn hard to make sure she will not get hurt, yet she still was. "I'm okay, Off, I'm going to be okay, don't hurt yourself with the guilt anymore" she said with a warm voice. "Love is inevitable. No one knows when love will come, for who will it be, or if it's meant to be" she stood up and faced me "I am thankful that you did love me, even though it was not meant to be. I am thankful that at least you decided to man up and talked to me" she leaned in and kissed my forehead "Thank you for not thinking of cheating" she whispered.

In our relationship I have always been a man of few words, mainly because I say a lot of things that I regret afterwards. Thus, it was understandable between the both of us, to why I only said very few words tonight; we both know we should not speak of words that will give false hopes.

We are both standing just outside the park when she spoke once again "Gun is a very charming, kind, and lovely person. Well, maybe sometimes too mischievous for his own good" she giggled and I laughed as she continued "But he's definitely someone who loves so genuine, may it be romantically or simply platonic; so pure and innocent" she showed me her lovely smile and said her final words for tonight "You found your true love, my dear Off; I am not going to deprive you of that. Don't let him go, tell him you love him" she finished as she started to walk towards her way to her apartment.

I looked at her back for a few seconds, to remind me of a great past. I was about to turn around when I heard her shout my name that made me look at her, she raised her hand as if taping me and shout "Tagged, you're it! Chase the one you truly love!" she then ran until I could not see her figure anymore. I know it will take a while for wounds to heal but we are at peace for we had our own of way of a happy ending; a tear-filled, heart-felt happy ending.

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AN: I wrote this to give light to the 'rival' I just want to turn the usual "enemy/rival" in a love interest to have a very understanding character. We often see 'rival characters' coming in between the main characters (most of the time, chaos is about to go down) so this time we'll make it more, what should I call it? at peace? 

This is also written with full respect towards Papi and his current relationship.

A wishful thinking of an OffGun lover. I mean no hate towards anyone. 

I just hope you like it  <3

Till next time! <3