My Gun Atthaphan Haven

Solace

The sun shines through the window, blinding me for a few moments before I decided to get up from my bed, a new day to conquer. The smell of fresh brewed coffee filled my apartment; calm was the first word I thought of.

Walking towards my little kitchen, I found the culprit that made my apartment smelling like a cafe - not that I minded though "Good morning, P" leaning on the divider which separates the living room to my kitchen, the man looked at me and gave his brightest smile "Good morning, had a good sleep?" he poured coffee in a mug and handed it to me, not missing to give me a light hug before making what seems to be our breakfast, this feels nice.

"Gun, do you want to go somewhere today?" he asked as he brought what he cooked for us and setting it on the table. I didn't really want to go outside today, so I shook my head to a no as I was making my way to sit. He once again smiled at me and offered me a spoon that he took out of the freezer "I was thinking you would say that, you really won't like to go out with those eyes looking like they are about to pop out" I just pout at him and pressed the cold metal to my swollen eyes, great! I look like a mess. "I just figured that maybe you would like to go somewhere to relax, a breather" he stated as we were starting to eat.

"It's alright, P. I'm more comfortable and relaxed here with you"

I went and had my shower after having our lovely breakfast. I looked at my reflection in the mirror while I was drying my hair what have you done to yourself, Gun.

Shaking all the thoughts in my head I threw the towel, covering the mirror. I smiled instantly at the sight in front of me as soon as I took a step out of my room "Do you like it? Just like the old times"

My couch was pushed all the way to the wall, creating a bigger space for the blanket on the foot of it; pillows spread out, making it look so cozy. The blinds were shut and the only lights illuminating the place came from the fairy lights on the wall and the television.

Peace

"Thank you, P" I ran towards him and hugged him thank you so much.

We both decided to spend the rest of the day watching movies and just have fun; that is what I thought.

"You know I did all these for you to have a clear mind. We're watching a comedy, is it too funny to the point that it made you cry?" his arms wounded over my shoulder, enveloping me.

I buried my face in the crook of his neck "Why did I fall for him? Why him out of all the people I spend time with? Why was it not you?" I told him, crying my eyes out once again.

"P'Arm, why does it hurt so badly?" I looked at him and I saw how sad his eyes were.

"Yeah, why was it not me?"

His lips touched mine and I completely froze, I didn't know what to do. Before I could push him away, he was the one who pulled back, he sighed and ruffled my head "I wasn't planning on doing that or even confessing, it's quite a rude way but it made you stop crying, right?" I just noticed that there are no longer tears streaming down my face.

He took my hand and held it tight "Did you ever felt that I have feelings for you?" he asked, I could only shook my head to answer no. I'm still shocked and did not really expect that I will be having this kind of moment with my best friend

"Well, I do. I do love you, more than like a brother. I do love you, like the way you love Off" I could feel him shaking, holding tightly to my hands as if I will run away from him was I going to?

"I don't want anything to change between the two of us" he said I think I have heard that before.

He looked at me and his eyes were so innocent "You decided to confess to Off, I'll do the same with you. But the only difference is, you have a chance with him" I cannot process what he is saying and I wanted to hug him but my mind would not let me, it felt like it was stopping me from giving him false hope.

"I'm sor-" I could not even finish what I was about to say because he stopped me "Don't apologize for making me fall for you, it was the most wonderful feeling I have ever experienced. Even if I knew that I'll forever be just your best friend"

I feel ashamed that I am letting this man go. No matter how surprised I am at this sudden turn of events, it made me feel that our bond is stronger. "Thank you, P. I may not be able to return your feelings, but I do cherish you" I finally hugged him; we stayed like that for a few minutes before pulling apart.

He cupped my cheeks and it made me calm down "You are my solace, P. I am so happy and blessed to have you in my life" I leaned in to his touch and felt him brushing my cheeks with his thumb.

He had always been my knight in shining armor. He never failed to give me the best and do everything for my happiness.

"The one thing I know is, Off loves you the same way you love him. And May, she understands and knows your feelings towards each other" my eyes were wide open after hearing what he said she knows what?

I was about to question his words when a knock sounded from the door "I'll get it" P'Arm said, completely wiping my tears away before proceeding towards the door, my eyes followed his figure as he disappears, completely being hidden by the wall.

Taking a deep breath, I heard the locks click "Woah, perfect timing" was all that came out from P'Arm's "P, who was it?" no answer was given. I stood up and was about to go to him, only to stay frozen on my spot as I look at the person in front of me.

"Hi, Gun"

"May"

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AN: Hello!!! Here's an update! lol. I apologize, once again, for not publishing anything. My mind was a mess and I kept on editing everything, I'm sorry! T.T

I was hoping to publish this before the month ends and I did it, hooray! What do you think? Is it okay? I wanted to write more but I thought I might drag it too long and way out of the story line. I hope you all will like it!

Thank you for reading!!! <3