My Gun Atthaphan Haven

Almost

The sound of the waves harmonizes with the cool breeze, making a very relaxing atmosphere, something that I have not felt in a long while. I thought I would be spending the whole summer at home, I thought something like this would also be a part of my long list of the things I should have done.

"Penny for your thoughts, P?" a bit startled, I looked at the owner of the voice, no need to wonder who it was, I knew it was him, there was no way I would not recognize his voice. "N'Ssing" I uttered as he was about to sit beside me. The beat of my heart went faster, just like every time he is near me "What's been bugging your mind, P" he asked, concern filled his eyes.

You

I sighed and shook my head "It's nothing much, don't worry" offering him a smile "I forgot to thank you for inviting me. This has been one of the best vacations I've ever had" I told him, he chuckled and I thought I was going to melt "The moment you told me that you will spend the entire summer at home, I knew I had to invite you"

"Why though?" the question suddenly came out of me. Maybe a part of me was just curious about his reason, we are close but I did not expect him to go ask me to join his vacation did he just pity me for being alone? Although, another part of me wanted to know if the reason was something special.

He placed his hand on my shoulder "Of course it was because we're friends. I wouldn't let you waste the time you should be having fun" the bright smile he showed did not affect me at all, I felt lost. Friends, well that one surely hurt.

He looked at me when I didn't say anything after, eyes squinting in the process "Come on, P. Something is really bothering you. Tell me, I'm willing to listen" he said and it made me more nervous.

I stared at him for a while, thinking of what I should do, what I should say. I know it was not the right time to confess, I'm even sure that I do not want to confess. It would only make everything awkward, not to mention that he invited me to join this vacation, I have no way of avoiding him after.

"Have you ever experienced missing someone you never had?" I asked him, he seemed confused at my question "What do you mean?" I sighed for the nth time "I guess what I meant was, missing the person you are in love with, even though you were never really together" I explained to him, he nodded; looking like he understands my dilemma "I think everyone went through that, P. It's normal to miss someone you like" I bit my lips normal, does he also have someone whom he likes? Of course he does, like he said, it's normal.

"Is it also normal to miss some things that you almost had with the person? Such as dates, kisses, and just being happy with each other. They are all dreams, imaginations, and probably wishful thinking, but for you they were the maybes, the things that could have happened if only you were honest with your feelings, in case that person like you as well" I covered my face with hands, embarrassed by what I have said.

"Should we make them real then, P? So that you won't miss them anymore" I shot a look at him, nothing seems to come to my mind, and I blankly stared at him.

"I'm sorry if I took my time, I'm in love with you, P'Gun" he took my hands and held it tight.

"What? How?" the only words that came out of my mouth, this was going too fast, I don't know what to feel; happy, confused, scared, and a lot more, every emotions were fighting each other.

"P'Tay"

Of course, Tay Tawan!

"You weren't the only one who wished for something between us. I lost the opportunity to confess before, because I thought you didn't feel the same way. But I'm pretty sure right now, that the way you treated me differently from your other juniors meant something, something special" I felt his hand cupped my cheeks and brushed the tears that I didn't know I was shedding "I won't let the opportunity pass me by again"

"P'Gun, I'll make sure that this time, it would not be an almost nor a maybe" he pressed his forehead against mine, our lips lightly brushing.

"But a definitely" he whispered against my lips.

We stayed like that for a few moments, feeling the warmth of each other, and sharing the kiss we almost never had.

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AN: Hello, once again ^^ Here's another short one, I hope you all like it! This was written in an impulse after listening to Tamia's song, Almost. I obviously did not proofread this lol.

I wrote this because of @theyoungestoftwo and I's love for Ssing and ATP ^^ I hope you like it, darling! Thank you for always motivating me and supporting my works! <3

Anyways, I hope that you all like it! Thank you for reading!