Slight chance the memories aren't mine
Because right now they're not true
Its crazy and unreal combined
Just thinking we could be a him and I
I know at this point cheesy is what I portray
And in the depths of your eternal love you know how i truly feel
So I like him....I really like him
How should i tell him
I don't know
I remember when he chose me...the joy I felt the confusion within
But more than ever the affection ifelt towards him..... That was all dead thou because yes he chose me
But i was a last resort
I think this is the worst feeling
Liking someone who doesn't notice me
But this is the world I'm living in
And its not that I'm not happy
But I'm forever in the dark
I'm forever a shadow
I'm just in the way of whats truly wanted
I am never really what's wanted
Isn't it sad to know all of this
To know that no matter who you really want
They only start wanting you when you've completely and utterly given hope up
Well hope is an illusion our minds fall for when we planning on giving up....hope is a case when we have reach our downfall and seeking demise...hope is the last straw before complete surrender...
At times I hoped that I was seen that I was loved I was valued and it was no actually it is difficult for me to hope for any of that
So hope
H- horrible
O- open
P- pity
E- enduring
Hope is openly accepting pity and enduring all of the disappointment that comes with
So right now I'm hoping and soon I'll be praying
But it won't really matter
Because it all comes down to the fact that I don't matter
Not to you anyway
Its so sickening to once again be this pitiful
Its so saddening to once again be this regretful
The worst part is not even that I'm not loved
The worst part is that the people I want to learn to love only love me when I don't know how to love then anymore
But again this case is different
In this case its just wishful thinking
On this level of disappointment its just .......
No words can describe this feeling so deep within
No laughter can soothe these tears and put my mind at ease
For at this point I'm far beyond hope
At this point I am done
Nobody worth these tears
Nobody knows these feelings
And its a shame that they can never know the girl behind these words
The broken little girl who keeps breaking
Who keeps stumbling , tumbling and crumbling
The girl who is seen as some strong figure but in all fairness im weak
But pity is not what I seek
And its not what ill accept
I'm done being in despair
But detachment is near
In the deepest of feels
Nothing truly feeling real
So my honesty I'll conceal
For these feelings I shan't ever try
And we'll never be him nd I
YOU ARE READING
broken bits
Randomthere's no other way to describe this book other than that this book is a piece of me and my every day life it is a journey that every girl has undertook but she will never expose ........this is a not so straight forward book that breaks me apart b...
