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Chapter 15

After I let the words out I couldn't look at her. Of course she reminds me of Amelia, she looks a hell of a lot like her but there are obvious discrimination's between the two, mostly in personality. Amelia was never afraid to do something that would get her in trouble, No was not in her vocabulary.

That year and a half with her was both the worst and best year and a half of my life and I would do anything to go back and stop her from starting. No one knows the real and full story, hell I don't even know the whole story. I was always just there for her to fall back on when she got into drugs and drinking. I never knew where it came from she just showed up one day drunk at my place and that is what started it all with her. After that night everything changed for the worst and it did not end well. It never ends well.

I force myself to look up at Trinity to find her also lost in her thoughts as she tries to comprehend what I just said to her. Her face twists into many different emotions as she tries to piece together a comprehensible story from the things she has heard from both me and Jordan. Sadness, anger, concern, and other emotions that I don't even try to untangle from the other emotions show. I simply wait for her to say something.

I don't blame her for being this surprised and mixed with this whole fucked up story that no one can seem to put together in an explainable state.

The only one that knows every part of the story is Amelia. So no one will be able to figure out this story, it will just be another one thrown into the void of unfinished stories. What I would give to know what happened and what caused the immense heartbreak of a screwed up love story.

But that is now all in the past and I don't particularly like visiting those memories and put myself in such a sensitive state.

"I understand if you don't want to try now that you know the truth, and you have probably heard a lot of shit about me which I won't be surprised if you did but all I'm asking is for a chance to prove them wrong and to show you that Amelia isn't going to drive this relationship. Yes she pretty much began this relationship but that can and will be set aside so we can make it ours," I pretty much plea to Trinity as she still sits in the same exact position as she was when I finished telling her the truth, hands held together in her lap with her legs out stretched in front of her and her shoulders sagging.

She finally detaches from her still state and looks up at me, tears again brimmed the edges of her eyes, "It will take me time to think this out, show me that this," she waves her hand between us, "whatever this is won't be solely on the fact that I look like her. I'll call you sometime tomorrow. Thank you for the ride home and all you have done for me today. Goodnight Niall," she leans over and kisses me on the nose, what she has done so many times and I will never want her to stop.

She grabs her things and gets out of my car, walking to her doorstep. She unlocks the door, turns around, makes eye contact with me and blows me a kiss. I take it, kiss the invisible kiss and blow it back to her, catching it and putting in her pocket she pats it softly and goes inside.

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Trinity POV

The cold air hits my face as I turn the corner, continuing my morning run earlier than planned at five o'clock in the morning. Sleep didn't find me in the greatest matter and I couldn't sleep with both nightmares and thinking of what Niall told me yesterday. My thoughts were so meshed that I was mixing memories of my teenage years with memories of things these past few weeks. I coulnd't concentrate or put together a single true thought without something seeping through that should stay locked away in the past. I laid awake for hours until I couldn't take the pain anymore and almost started my run in my pajamas.