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part seventyfour

well, my heart is hurting, just as it was before i went to the mental institute. i was blocked for no reason, i told them they were cute.

i'm done trying, i just want a boy that will be loyal, fight for me, and will not break my heart. one that will wait on me no matter what.

i gave the uber my money, which was bringing me back to the home where i would go, and lay in my bed and cry my life away.

after the ride was over, i  moped my way to the front door, and walked my way to my room.

he promised, he's broken so many promises. it pains my heart, seeing him with another girl, cuddling each other.

i just wish i could move out, so i wouldn't have to see anyone anymore. i walked to the kitchen, to get a bottle of water, and a snack and then go live in my room for the rest of my life.

i walked into the kitchen, seeing pilot and zach do what the do best, make out right in front of me.

"can y'all go find a room, to suck each other's faces off. not in the middle of the place we all come to eat," i asked rudely.

"sorry, yea we will go to my room," zach said.

"i'm not going anywhere, she doesn't run this place. i can make out with you in the middle of the kitchen if i want to," his girlfriend said, standing her ground.

"don't start lilly, let's just go to my room," zach said, trying to get her to come.

"i'm not going anywhere," she said.

"well then let me get my stuff, and then you guys can go back to whatever y'all want to do," i said while getting a water bottle and a granola bar. 

after grabbing my stuff i walked back to my room, holding in my tears. i miss you. i opened my door, and sat down on my bed and cried until i ran out of tears.