First chapter here we go! If you have and request please tell me, I'm always open. My DM's are also always open if you ever want to talk. TRIGGER WARNING! IF ANY OF THIS STUFF BOTHERS YOU STOP READING, AND PLEASE FIND SOME HELP, OR JUST MESSAGE ME! Also, this contains spoilers for season 5, you have been warned.
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(Lance's POV)
What sucks more than being in space with people who don't like or care about you is the fact that you know you're not good enough. Not strong enough, not smart enough, not talented enough, and not skinny enough. Most people automatically react to seeing me by commenting how I'm lucky to be so tall and skinny, but that's not the way I feel. I can't help but to think that if I was skinnier I could be faster, stronger, and better at fighting. I got into the habbit of training all of the time, the only time I'm not is when we are on missions."Train harder Lance!" I hear Allura yell at me, but I can't. I can't even remember when I got sleep for more than two hours, much less the last time I ate a full meal. I see a droid come towards me, and I use my sword to cut it in half making it go back underground. I look over at the others to see Pidge and Hunk smiling at me, but Allura and Shiro were a completely different story. Ever since Shiro got back, and Keith left I've been getting yelled at for even talking at this point. It's as if no matter what I do Shiro and Allura will never be pleased, and I hate it. I walk over to where Shiro and Allura are standing getting ready to be yelled at. "Lance, what was that? You took five minutes to take down one drone! Keith could've taken out 10 in that time!" "I'm sorry Princess, but I'm ju-" I get cut off by Shiro yelling at me to. "No more excuses Lance! Why can't you just be as good as Keith?!" I look down at my shoes while Allura and Shiro walk off, and when Hunk and Pidge try to comfort me I just walk off to my room.
As I'm taking off my armor and putting my normal clothes back on I look at my wrist and see all of the light pink scars that adorn my skin. I like to say I stopped a long time ago, and I did, but after being shot into space my old habits have come back. I put my shirt and jacket on and finish getting ready, and then I go and sit on my bed. I look over on the nightstand thingy and see the picture of my family. I miss them, they never thought I wasn't good enough, never saw me as a failer, and never said anything about the way I look.
Before I realize it the alarm for dinner is going off and I get up and slowly walk there. I'm probably going to be yelled at by Shiro and Allura, but I'm used to it. Dinner is the same, show up late, check, get yelled at by Shiro and Allura for being late, check, watch as everybody talks and ignores me as I pick at my food, check, leave early without anyone noticing, check. Tonight was different though, because three representatives from the Blade of Mamora are here, and Lotor as well. These nights are the ones I like the most because Shiro and Allura would never yell at me with guest around, Lotor was actually really nice to me and talked to me at dinner, and Keith was there.
I may act like I hate him, but it's actually the exact opposite. I'm bi, which means I like both genders, which means I somehow ended up liking Keith. Arughing with him was the way that I tried flirting, but that obviously didn't work because he left, and I feel like it was my fault. Now he's probably never coming back because of finding his mom, and now I'm going to be miserable until we can go home.
When I get there Allura and Shiro glare at me, which I ignore, Pidge and Hunk smile at me, and I give them a weak smile back, Coran says hi, and I respond back, and everyone else watches as I sit down. "Glad to see you could join us Lance," Which is Allura's way of saying I wish you weren't here right now. I just mumble something back and keep staring at my food. I feel a pair of eyes on me, and when I look over I see Keith looking away from me, and I can't blame him. The others talk and eat while I keep looking at my food, and after about 30 minutes I get up, dump my untouched food, and I head to the observation deck. I know they'll come here afterwards, and the last thing I want to do is miss a meeting again.
I pull up the holographs and stare at the stars, until I hear foot steps approaching, and I turn them off. Allura and Shiro walk in first, followed by the Blade of Mamora and Lotor, with Pidge, Hunk, and Coran coming last. I stand up and go over to where Pidge and Hunk are, but I feel something trip me and I fall onto the ground at Lotor's feet, but before anyone says anything I get up and run, more like limp, over to Hunk who let's me grab his arm to hold me up. Allura starts talking about plans to take out any of the Galra rebels, but I start seeing black dots, and the next thing I know I'm on the floor and I see blobs that seem to be looking at me before everything goes back.
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(Keith's POV)
I was listening to Allura's plan when I hear Pidge yell out, sounding surprised, and when I look over I see Lance on the floor with Pidge and Hunk trying to wake him up. I run over and check his pulse, and I am relived to find a faint one, and I help Hunk carry him to a healing pod. I get he tripped, but that should be no reason for him fainting. We get him in the pod, and Coran checks his vitals. "He seems to have low nutrients, wait, I take that back, no nutrients levels. Does anybody know when the last time he ate was?" Everybody looked at each other and I saw quilt on their faces. I looked over at Lance and saw the marks all over his wrist and I look at Shiro and Allura. "What is wrong with you?! You treat Lance like a pile of dirt! You haven't noticed that he hasn't eaten in who knows how long, or when the last time he slept was! You two are supposed to be his leaders, but you act like he's some piece of crap on your shoes!" I storm out of the room and go to the hangars where the lions are.
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(Lance's POV)
I remember blacking out, and next thing I know I'm falling out of a pod. I get ready to hit the ground, but I am caught by Hunk. I look around and see everyone, including Lotor and the BOM members. I stand up on my own and smile slightly at Hunk. "W-what happened?" I see Shiro glaring at me. "You tell us Lance, when was the last time you slept or ate?!" I glare back and cross my arms. "Since when do you care! All you do is yell and criticize me! I spend more time training and trying to get better to please you!" I run out and go to my room.So, this is the first chapter, but there will be a part two! I'm working on it as soon as I write a new chapter for my other story. Until then, bye!
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ФанфикWhat the title says, warning for... ~Depression~ ~Anxiety~ ~Insomnia~ ~Anorexia~ ~Cutting~ ~Suicide attempts~ IF ANY OF THIS TRIGGERS YOU PLEASE DO NOT READ! My DM's are always open if you want to talk! Most of the chapters will have happy/good endi...