Welcome To The Basement

Welcome back to the basement (part 1)

It's time for Silent hill 2! Jordan said excitedly to jumpscare Kirby as he pulled out the game case for Silent hill 2 getting ready to review it and so he did. Jordan said that Silent hill 2 was his favorite horror game of all time.

"So, chances are, if you have any concernable amount of time watching my videos you'd already guessed this but I have depression." Jordan said

"God, just saying that in a video sounds...dumb." Jordan said

but suddenly Sadness appeared and said that it was dumb that Jordan said he confessed about depression. Jordan turned and asked sadness "who the hell are you?" Sadness awnsered "I'm Jordan" Jordan clarified him saying "No, I'm Jordan".

"No, I'm Jordan." Sadness said

"No, you're not!" Jordan proclaimed

"I can be if i kill you" Sadness replied as he pulled out a knife

"Muhh.." Jordan shivers

"Personally, I'm not the type who likes to talk about my depression because well fuck, who in the world doesn't get depressed, right? Sadness is an emotion we all go through and we all go through it in different ways."

"To be completely honest, sad is more or less something that I used to be a long time ago rather than something I am today." Jordan said

"I mean you all know me today, I'm a happy person nowadays, I mean yeah I do think about death a lot, I talk about morbid shit all the time and I'm extremely obsessed with dark, fucked-up dismal things but depressed? I can't really say I'm depressed I find a little too much beauty in the world, too much irony and hilarity in it to really be depressed, nowadays everything's just funny too me but any gloom I do have, I just laugh it away." Jordan said

"I tried to embrace sadness nowadays as something Beautiful and normal rather than something tragic and painful and I think doing that has helped a lot but back when I was younger, things were much different." Jordan said

"When I was a kid, a young, dumb, clueless little kid I was a manic depressive mess at least for the most part. On the outside I was your typical nerdy kid, I stayed home a lot, played video games, read books, drew pictures, only sometimes hung out with friends and that was all fine but on the inside something was wrong."
Jordan said

Sadness interrupts "wait you hung out with friends? You never hung out with friends."

"Shut up." Jordan replied

"You've never leave this basement, you don't even know how to leave this basement!" Sadness remarks

"Why do you have to say depressing things?!" Jordan asked

"So first when I was little my doctor tried to diagnose me with clinical depression or as he referred to it "Major Depressive Disorder" this is something I can't really blame him for. Whenever I talk to my doctor I would always say things like "Doctor, I feel empty everything around me feels sad, I look at the city and I feel sad, I look at the trees and I feel sad, I look at the houses and I think about sad things, I think about people growing old and then dying because they're old."

"I think about people getting married and throwing their life away and then getting sick of each other years later and then dying because they're old."

"I think about all the people who got tortured in the dark ages and I wish I could help them but I can't because they're already dead and one day I'll be dead too but first I'll get old."

"Yeah, I was a weird kid." Jordan said

"But, honestly this wasn't even the worst part of it all, the worst part was that I just wanted to alone." Jordan said