"I Just Thought"

15

I really don't want to believe you. Or maybe nevertheless I wasn't believing myself. I had my hopes so very high that it ate me up to some point. I was down for a couple of days, your presence make me want to be swallowed by the floor. I was truly infantuated by your cute smiles and funny remarks. I wanna continue this senseless doings, yet their whispers lingers on my ears, making me wonder, making my eyes open wider. The fact that you just talked to me to get ideas, answers or things makes me wanna hide myself and crawl down to never see you. I will never forgive myself for being so selfless to not put a big big hard wall so that my little heart won't be hurt again. I became emotional, and my ego is poking me so bad.