wonder / S.M

five.

shawn's POV

i kissed her. i kissed my fucking doctor. how dumb could i get. i have feelings for my twenty-two year old doctor who probably could care less about me. maybe my dad is right. maybe that's all i am. a fuck up. maybe the world would be a better place if i never was here to begin with. maybe my dad would be a better person. maybe my mom would still be here. maybe.

today is my last day in the hospital. im dismissed in one hour. then what am i gonna do? fantasize about ariana? i know she'll want nothing to do with me after this.

my thoughts were kicked out of my head when the door crept open, revealing ariana. she wasn't in her normal doctors robe and white scrub pants. she was wearing some dark colored skinny jeans and a hoodie from her senior year in high school. her long hair was piled in a bun and her glasses still rested on her nose. she looks adorable.

"hi!" she said in a perky voice.

"hi." i smiled.

"you get to go home today!" she said with a smile.

that's when my mood changed. where is home? where am i going after this? i have absolutely no one.

"you alright?" she asked as she sat next to me.

"yeah.. just not sure what im gonna do after this." i replied and looked down at my hands that rested in my lap.

"what do you mean?" she asked.

i sighed and rubbed my forehead softly.

"i have no one. absolutely no one. i have nowhere to go. i don't wanna go back to my fathers, ill end up here again within days." i spilled.

she furrowed her eyebrows and cleared her throat.

"i mean, you could stay with me for awhile?" she suggested.

maybe she does care.

"you'd do that for me?" i asked, looking over at her.

she laughed lightly and grabbed my hand.

"the list of things id do for you is endless, my love." she said as she drew small, soothing circles on my hand with her thumb.

i grinned and squeezed her small hand with mine. im so lucky to have met her. so lucky.

an hour went by and next thing i knew i was at the front counter checking myself out. ariana met me outside in her black jeep wrangler. my dream vehicle actually. it even had the lift and hard top.

i hopped in and buckled up. i looked over at her and smiled.

"let's get going." she said with a smile.

the drive to her house consisted of small talk and the faint sound of the radio playing. about twenty minutes later, we arrived at ariana's place, which was very beautiful. it was in a small, but cute neighborhood. she lived in a smaller house, which made sense because it's just her living there.

"welcome to my crib!" she said as she unlocked her front door.

i laughed and followed her in.

she showed me around the house and showed me the bedroom i'd be staying in. it was right across from her room.

the time was 8:45 p.m. i was very tired. i needed to shower though. i lied out a clean set of clothes to change into and a towel from the laundry room. i got in the bathroom and turned the shower on, adjusting it to my desired heat. i stripped completely and got in the shower. for a few minutes i just stood there, letting the warm and relaxing water cover my body. ariana had set out some, what she called it, more "manly" hygiene products out for me. those being coconut shampoo and conditioner and lavender body wash. i laughed as i grabbed the bottles. i took a small amount of the shampoo and honestly, it smelled pretty freaking good. i scrubbed it through my hair and rinsed it out. i grabbed the body wash and covered myself in the beautiful scented soap.

i mean, i kind of smell like a girl. but who said that was an issue?

i shut the shower off when i was done and stepped out. i dried off with my towel and soon realized; i forgot my clothes.

i wrapped the towel around my waist and opened the door slowly, looking both ways to make sure ariana wouldn't see me. i began walking towards my room, and as soon as i turned the corner, i bumped into ariana. i felt the towel threaten to slip and i grabbed it just in time.

"i am so sorry! i forgot to take my pajamas to the bathroom with me and i just had to you know-"

"it's ok!" she laughed as she covered her eyes in a joking manner.

i felt my cheeks get hot, and i rushed off to my room in complete embarrassment.