Castle- before and after years and centuries

One more bottle for the pain~

Darkness... thats all of whats left in my soul... just a big empty void after she left.... i know im sleeping.. or am i dead? It doesn't  matter Anymore... Ive lost the two most important girls in my life.... first my daughter... and now her... she left after everything that we lived... she just left me.. does she even know how i felt? How i was head over heels for her and she just pushed me down and left? After all i opened up and told her about... it all went to hell...  come on... wake up Kenkai... get your drugged ass off the floor... still passed out, the darkness inside of me ? Is it really big enough to drive me this far? No i can battle it... can i? How can i battle something i created? Would i feel guilty or just damaged by destroying it? Its hard to say.... its hard to say why you continue when your dead inside...

In that Kenkai stood up, his eyes sad and depressed, he sat down on his couch/bed and looked at the picture still resting on his hand, he uncovered the third person showing another girl with long back hair and outline purple and red eyes, Kenkai sighted and burned the picture on his hand, he lated back on the couch as he started to mumble old songs, from his years as a Eminem impersonator , he started to sing one of his favorite ones, "Die alone" he tried to stop himself from shaking but it was impossible, he started to set his couch on fire slowly, he swallowed him whole but he wasn't hurt just mildly warm "why can't i forget you.. you did it... why can't i do the same..?" He stood up as the flames seemed to die down, he walked towards the kitchen, he was still on a pill trip so he just tried to cook something to fix his munchies, he ended up just making a omelet and then snapping his fingers making a new couch appear replacing the old one, when he went to lay down someone knocked on the door. " s-shit why today... who is it?" A soft timid voice came from the other side of the door, it was kitty of course, "its me! I wanted to speak to you.. mind if i enter?" Kenkai sat down as he ate his omelet and flicked his finger as the door opened and closed once she entered.
Kenkai-" how can i help ya kitty?"
Kitty or better called Samantha gave a little blush as she spoke-" im not a kitty! Im a neko demon vampire... okay im not sure what i am.." she sat down without permission next to Kenkai which left him uneasy, but he didn't say anything.
Kenkai- "well samantha, what do you want?"
Samantha just smiled at him gently laying her head against his shoulder.
Samantha-" just some company.. and well.. your my closest friend"
Kenkai rose his eyebrow-" im your friend?"
Samantha just blushed embarrassed as she hugged him, trying to get his attention,   She had been pumping herself up for weeks now, today was the day she was gonna tell Kenkai her feelings, she was thinking about how to doit, maybe steal a kiss? Tell him outright? See if she can make him say if she s cute enough for him or she liked him... how could she do so?
Kenkai-" don't say it... i know what you are thinking Samantha... im your teacher.. your cute and all but im not ready to be interested in anyone... im sorry.. " he said that honestly but Samantha just stared at him surprised as she quickly spoke back-" how did you know i was gonna ask that!??!"
Kenkai sighted as he rubbed the top of her head, was too drugged to even know what he was doing at the moment as he gently kissed both of her cheeks then spoke gently.
Kenkai-" remember i read minds... i know what you are thinking... im sorry... im too drugged to be able to have some respect for your thoughts so i entered and heard what you where thinking... its really cute but now is not the time... im too heartbroken and i cant really fall in love with a student i nearly know.. forgive me.."
Samantha was frozen... she wanted to cry but she understood what was wrong, she wanted to do so many things from attacking who ever hurt Kenkai so much to collapse in tears in her bedroom, but she didn't do neither..she knew he didn't want to harm her... she understood, but she didn't hold herself on one thing, she gently grabbed his cheek and pulled him down to kiss him, but instead of being the kiss she always dreamed off he just collapse on top of her, the over dose of drugs just big enough to make him collapse and her to catch him, she placed him face up and in panic called a ambulance before she felt Kenkais grip on her wrist.
Kenkai-" no... don't call them... ill be fine Sam... just... let me rest"
Samantha had learned before not to question Kenkai so she left him there, she was now heartbroken but at least she had helped him atleast a little on the other hand Kenkai felt line shit... he couldn't pass his own broken heart and now he caused another one... he just layed there sleeping as the day hit February first... "fuck February"   He said gently as he went to sleep again, the drugs helping hims rest as Samantha came back after a while, silently opening a door and leaving him a teddy bear, a box of chocolates and a "im sorry" note. She wished it could be different but there was nothing she could do, she left silently as Kenkai faked sleep, not wanting to hurt her anymore, he proceded to sleep all pass February, not waking up to anything or anyone, maybe then he could get some sleep or get sick enough to forget his past... for now only a name bounced in his head "Haily" his deceased daughters name.. maybe now he could reunite with her...