[going to rewrite] remember when

remember when | drift

Clarey:

We started drifting away from each other. I didn't ask whether we were going home together anymore, and sometimes during recess we didn't even eat together.

I thought that would make you come running back crying. Turns out I was wrong. You had Alex, and you looked okay.

You made me feel like I was nothing.

And that made me angry Clarey.

I decided to hang out more with Belinda and Elizabeth then. By that time, they were already getting popular already in school, despite only 14. I joined in, and we had fun Clarey. We had fun - without you.

Right now I'm so sorry I ever let my grip of you slip away. Damnit, I regret it so much. I wished I had never start to let go of you, because you soon slipped out of my grip completely and by then it was too late to regret already.

I'm so sorry I wanted to drift apart from you. I thought - I thought  - you would come back. You didn't. And it's not your fault. It's mine.

I'm listening to Let Her Go by Passenger right now as I write this, and screw it, I feel like the song was written for me.

I shouldn't have let you go Clarey. I'm so, so sorry.

Alicia