Childhood Love

Chapter 8

(Nayeon's POV)

It has been 2 months since me and Jeongyeon moved into the school dorm and living with her and seeing her 24/7 is making me fall harder for her. I dare not confess to her cause i'm scared she doesn't feel the same towards me and i know that my parents would not be able to accept if i told them that i liked girls instead of boys. I think i would just keep the feelings to myself for the meantime.

We were walking with the rest of our squad to the cafeteria and seeing them being clingy to each other makes me jealous that i can't have those type of skinship with Jeongyeon. I tried to brush of the thoughts and ignore my feelings.

"Nayeon unnie!" I snapped back from my thoughts when our loud Jihyo shouted infront of me. "Huh? What happen?" i said still clueless. "Nayeon unnie, you had been spacing out since the moment we sat down. What were you thinking about?" Jeongyeon asked. "Uhh.... Not.. nothing.. " i answered stuttering. Why am i even stuttering?! Pabo Nayeon! "Eyyyy~Nayeon unnie is thinking about her boyfriend~ Am i right unnie?" Chaeyoung said proudly with abit of tease. "Shut up cub! I'm not thinking about that!" I shot back and she pouted. The cub tried to seek comfort from her girlfriend and of course our elegant Minari comforted her cub with a peck on her lips and without fail, it made Chaeyoung smile like a kid showing her dimples. Aish these kids. Always being lovey dovey. "You guys should go get a room." Momo said looking at Sana and Tzuyu who was in their own little world kissing and hugging each other the moment we sat down. "Are you jealous Momoring?" Sana said while smirking and Momo just rolled her eyes.

I got up to walk to the washroom when Jeongyeon walked up next to me. "Nayeonie ~" She said making me look at her. "Huh? Do you want to go to the washroom too Jeongie?" i asked. "Err.... Not really... but i have something i need to tell you. Privately... "She said while looking down at the floor. "Uhh.. okay just wait for a minute. We'll go to the rooftop and talk okay?" I said and winked at her. After i came out from the washroom, we went to the rooftop. I messaged Jihyo saying that they dont have to wait for us.

"So what is it that you want to talk about?" I asked with full of curiosity.

"Ermmm.... I LOVE YOU UNNIE!"

(Jeongyeon's POV)

I decided to confess to her today. I cant hide my feelings anymore. Its been two months since the both of us lived together and i cant help falling deeper and deeper for her. She makes my heart beat like crazy with the slightest thing she does. I am so deeply in love with my best friend and i cant deny my feelings anymore.

We walked to the rooftop and i was soooooo nervous. I dont know what her reaction would be. "So what is it that you want to talk about?" she asked.

"Ermmm.... I LOVE YOU UNNIE! " i said it.. I finally said it. I looked at her and she was so shocked.

"Wha... What did you say?"

"I love you unnie.... I've been wanting to tell you what i felt towards you but i'm scared if you cant accept it. I've learned that what i felt towards you was somthing more than friends and that i loved you. You make my heart beat like crazy with the slightest thing you do and i feel happy when i'm with you." I said without looking at her.

"Thanks for loving me Jeongyeon but i'm sorry i can't accept your love." She said and then walked away.

I was left there alone at the rooftop dumbfounded at what she said and tears started falling uncontrollably. I was crying so much that i couldn't bear to continue my classes and i went back to our dorm. I locked myself in my room and cried my heart out and slowly i drifted to sleep.

(Nayeon's POV)

"Thanks for loving me Jeongyeon but i'm sorry i can't accept your love." I walked away trying to hold back my tears that started forming in my eyes. I ran to the school garden and cried. I messaged Jihyo saying that i'm at the garden and after a few minutes Jihyo arrived. I hugged her immediately while she patted my head and rubbed my back.

"Its okay unnie. Dont cry~ I know you love her." She said while rubbing my back. Jihyo is the only person who knows i loved Jeongyeon i told her my feelings once when i was drunk and since then i would tell her all my secrets.

I cried so hard to the point i started shaking. She just provided me the comfort that i need and hugged me tight. "My mom wants me to go to the states with my brother Jihyo... " I said while crying she was abit shocked but she tried to remain calm. "Is that why you rejected Jeongyeon?" I nodded and tried to dry my tears. "Mom said if i insist on loving Jeongyeon she would send me to the states... I tried to talk her out of it but she made up her mind and she is making me leave tomorrow." I said and started crying again. "Are you not going to tell Jeongyeon about this?" She asked after a few minutes of silence. I just shook my head "She deserve someone better and it would be easier for her to move on. Dont tell anyone about this Jihyo ahh.... Just let them think i disappeared." She hugged me so tightly and i feel her tears falling now. "I'll miss you unnie... Remember to keep in contact with me.." I nodded and both of us just sat there in silence until school's over.

I went back home and went to my room. I cant go back to the dorm because i cant bear to see Jeongyeon anymore.. My brother picked up my things at the dorm this morning and we would leave to the airport tomorrow morning. I lay on my bed thinking about the things that happened and i slowly fell asleep.
Flashback

(Bold - Nayeon Italic - Nayeon's mom)

"No Nayeon! You are not falling in love with a girl! What do you think other people will think about us if they know that my daughter is a lesbian! Our family reputation will be ruined!"

"But i love her mom! I wont love any other people if i can't love her! I have the right to decide who i love! You cant force me to love someone i don't!"

"If you insist on loving her then you leave me no choice! You are going back to the states with your brother!"

"You can't do this mom! Its not fair!"

"I can do what i want and you need to follow because i'm your mother and i have made up my mind!"

"WHATEVER!!!"
I ran to my room and closed the door with a loud bang. I cried myself to sleep that night knowing that i have to leave Jeongyeon... Please forgive me for my actions Jeongyeon... It's only the best for you..