Realisation

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Where my heart once ached for love, it now aches for breath, I'm falling apart. Drifting away on this sea of nightmares.

I hope that you are out there somewhere, free and singing with joy. Because that thought keeps me going, it makes my pain seem good. For how can I complain if you are free?

All these burdens deserve to belong to me. I was always the stronger one, in truth and heart. You were always alight, burning with love for life. So I shall carry these chains with me until the day I can't take it any longer.

But it will make all the pain worth it to know you have no hate or fear in your heart. To know you will be soaring, high, way up above in the clouds. You will have the sun beating down on your face, just as I have shadows raking across mine.

You deserve to live, not because of your goodness or your heart, but because what is life of it denies living? You were put here for the world, I was put here to help you get there.

To let you stand upon my shoulders and shine your light to all. They deserve you, more than I could ever do. For you were always the one who could live without the other.