To Belong

For You

Hoseok pov

Have you ever been so lost and vulnerable to the point your body and mind slowly breaking apart? No? Well I do- I mean we do.

Ever since I lost the love of my life, my other half, my fiancée, my.... futu..re.. hus...ba..nd. Shaking my head out of depression 'F*ck, I almost go into depression, I need to stay strong for both of us' I slap my cheeks to stay together. Sigh Lately I can't do a thing, it's like everything I do is pointless, Jimin's been hiding behind a wall and become distant, I miss his smile and giggles, he's not 'Jimin' I used to know and I'm not the one 'I' used to know either.

Damn*t I went into depression again, I miss my love, I need him, I need help, Jimin need his help.

I love Jimin, well not in the kind of love I have for Taehyung, for Jimin it's like a brotherly love, the first time I met them I was mesmerized by Tae's beauty I feels like everything around me goes slow it's like everything revolves around us, ugh I sound so cheesy, I rub my arms from the cringe I caused myself.

My first impression of Jimin was he's cute and so angelic, like if I died and become a ghost I can see the halo above him. When he greeted me he smiles widely his eyes turns into crescent and his voice is cute and angelic like his appearance like a ring of bell he's also polite at that moment I have an urge to protect this little guy from evils so he can stay pure.

But I failed to protect him, I mean I even lost the love of my life and I'm going to lose my cute little brother at this point. I'm a failure as big brother, I-

"Hyung, the egg is burning..." I heard a soft voice behind me almost a whisper "Woaah!! Aaaahhh!!" As I flail my arms around in panic and screaming like an idiot Jimin's arm went around me and turn the stove off he immediately dump the egg into the trash bin and proceed to the sink and cool the fry pan "Sorry I was daydreaming..." I rub my neck, great not only I am a failure as big brother now I'm a failure as a cook.

"Let's have cereal as breakfast" Jimin said getting a cereal box from the top cabinet beside the fridge and take a bottle of 1ltr milk from fridge. I get us bowls and spoons from top cabinet near stove. We're eating silently and the kitchen became awkward, I peek at Jimin seeing his pale skin parched lips eyes blank broke my heart to pieces, the once angel I know became a living corpse, I can't bring my self to ask him about this morning, I was really scared and helpless when I see Jimin thrashing around in his sleep screaming for help. I can't even say a thing at the bathroom only hugging him, it was the second time I see him broke down, first one was when he saw Tae's dead body at hospital.

I don't want to lose him ever, I need to do better for him, I'll do anything... to see him smile like an innocent child again.

Jimin pov

Stirring my cereal I can't bring myself to lift the spoon and eat it, the nightmare still lingering in my mind and soul, was it even a dream? It feels real, the sensation, the smell, the fear, the pain, all of it feels real.

But if it was real then where was I? Who bring me there? What happened to my wounds?  Hyung said I was sleeping in my bed, then it was only a bad dream where the fear brought me to believe it was reality? If so then how to explain the hand print that has become bruise at my wrist and hip where the mysterious hands grab me into the broken mirror away from the monster.

I shuddered from the thought, I can feel my bile rising up from remembering the monster, I can still feel the eyes staring at me in this room, 'No no no no no it can't be...please...no' my hands shaking, water start building up in my eyes blurring my vision, heart beating fast, it's hard to breath "Jimin you're not eating?" I snapped my head up to meet Hyung's worried face "uuhhh... I... I'm not really hungry..." I look down to avoid his eyes, calming myself, taking slow deep breath, this is bad I almost get panic attack and become a nuisance to Hyung.

I can't be a bother Hyung, being nuisance to him is the last thing I need to do, I must handle this myself I can't trouble him and make him worry, determined I lift my head to meet his eyes "I'm going now, see you later Hyung.." okay that's better I managed to say without shaking but I don't know if I'm smiling.

"Alright take care, I'll pick you up later after work 'kay?" Hyung smiles warmly at me, making my heart aches, no no no I can't cry right now, not now, I only nod and leave quickly before my resolve broke and run to hug him and burst my eyes out. I can't trouble him.

Taking my bag from couch I check inside to see if I have all my belongings, putting on shoes with shaky hands at the entrance I can still feel I'm being watched 'No! It's not real, I'm only being paranoid' shaking my heads I open the door looking back before leaving "Hyung I promise I won't make trouble for you, I'll do anything for you, so please don't lose your smile even if I break apart."

Author Note : sorry for late update I was busy, and i also apologize for boring chapter... :(