Free as a bird

chapter 14

The first thing I wanted to do was figure out what was goin on. I could see two chubby little face and then it all came in to focus.

Two faces, small, cofused faces, newborns...

"Dominic?" I said, clutching my head and  loking at his face.

I hadn't seen him smile lke that in a long time, all his perfectly alligned teeth, he took a deep breath and kissed the heads of both baby's heads before exhaling.

" Beautiful aren't they? We thought it was just one baby, but when we found out it was two... Overjoyed. All I can ay. One boy, one girl."

I nodded, but then I thought of Zach and became bitter again. I couldn't stand this anymore, even though I was unhappy, people's worlds kept on turning, they had lives and o did Dominic in only a short while, he'd managed to find a great new place and had two babies. I glanced over at a photo with a curvy brunette. She had a kind smile and a nice tan. Great, he also had a beautiful girlfriend.

I stroked back my hair and sighed.

" I found you, wandering the streets with no sense of direction, I thought that maybe you were drunk, so I went over to you and asked if you were okay, when you suddenly dropped in my arms." He finally said after an awkward few moments of silence.

" Oh gosh.. Really?" My cheeks flushed red and I turned away to face the wall. Vanilla colour, It loked good. Dominic had never put this much effort into home deco.

" You..." I began. " You jerk! You just move on so quickly, find the prettiest girl and have a few children? Y-You just move out and leave me, in an ugly place surrounded by failed memories and tatterd furniture!" I didn't shout too loud because of the babies, who dominic then placed in a portable crib.

Once he'd done that, he came back over to me. And I dreaded what he'd say.

" How dare you.." He whispered, his voice low and ominous. " I take you in, you were out there, dark, vunrable when you could have been abducted... And you, insult me? I moved on... I'm happy, but you can't be?"

I felt myself sinking into that pit labled shame again, I hadn't changed, at all. I was still bitter and selfish and boring. I still couldn't take a joke or watch anyone else be happy, what could I possibly have that other people didn't have better?

" I-I'm..." I stuttered, I needed to try and get the apology out but it didn't come out. " I'm going to go now."

With that, I slumped my bag over my shoulders and hobbled out the room, closing the door behind me, I stumbled into a dim light in which I could barely see, the clouds were forming a long wavy line of pink and dark violet. I brushed myself down and tried to look like I knew where I was, to tell the truth, I had no idea where I was because I hadn't lived here for so long. I tried to remember memories from when I used to walk down this road.

I placed my bag and myself onto a small bench and tried to recognize the area around me. " Rosemary gardens." I read on a nearby sign, I remebered the red writing, half stained with the moisture of leaf juice.

The trees towering over it and leaving me thinking about when me and Dominic were together, walking hand in hand and strolling though stony paths. He would twirl me until I was dizzy and fell onto his hard bulky chest. He would bend over and kiss me slightly, and then I would go on my tip toes and see if I could reach his soft lips back. His hands would slip round my waist and the leaves would run past my feet, squirrells scurrying past my legs.

" You know I love you right?" He would say in a hushed voice. Stroking my cheek. I couldn't help but blush.

But then, as the memory began to fade, I began worry, Is it possible.... That I could ever..... Love DOminic again?

Could I ever feel that love again, his warm lips against mine..... No...No!

I shook my head and burst into tears, what was happening to me?