Wrong

Prologue

“Pagbibigyan nalang silang

Magkandarapa na manligaw sa’yo

Idadaan nalang kita sa awitin kong ito

Sabay ang tugtog ng… Gitara oh-oh-oh

Idadaan nalang, sa Gitara”

 

I hope she liked my song. I prepared for it kaya no. My friends and hers are clapping their hands. I think they enjoyed it. And I wish she did.

“For you Arra”, I gave her the bouquet of flowers I was holding a while ago.

“Thanks”, she replied with a smile. She went near me –to my left ear—and I think she’s going to whisper something to me. I hope it’s a ‘YES’ ha-ha. I felt excited tuloy.

“It’s a ‘no’, Thomas. No, I’m sorry.” I was dumb folded and a look of shock is plastered on my face. Everyone around us is clapping, ‘wooh-ing’ in cheer. They sure think that Arra answered me—with a ‘Yes’ —because she is already hugging me.

“Arra”, I said as I hugged her back. “Wha-Why, I don’t understand, I’ve been courting you for months. You can still say ‘I’m not yet ready’ or—“she cut me off when I broke the hug and held on her shoulders.

“Thom, ayoko nang umasa ka nang umasa. I better tell you the truth that I feel no romantic love for you now. No.” she said. Ouch, too accurate.

“Well, probably not now, but eventually”, I said moving to her hands and holding it but still looking straight to her eyes. I can feel my tears forming at the sides of my eyes. “I can wait, next year—college—and even after we graduate college”, I wiped a tear that fell from my left eye using my hand. “I love you and let me prove that to you.”

Our friends are smiling widely. If they could only hear our conversation, but I think that would be more embarrassing. I am hurt, really hurt.

“No Thomas, I want you to stop courting me na, and, I know, I can love you, but as I told you, not romantic love. Just friendly love”, she continued, “and we can still be friends”, she smiled and walked away.

I heard gasps of surprise and some murmurs. She just walked away. Okay (I’m not dumb to chase after her. I’ve been embarrassed enough, actually, too much humiliated). ‘Just friendly love’, ‘We can still be friends’. Okay? No, definitely not okay.

I don’t want to look like a total idiot just frozen at my place after being friend-zoned by a girl I love. So I ran away to find an isolated place where I can think of anything besides Arra. It truly hurts. I can’t believe she was able to do that. I want to punish myself—and I feel like I am going to.

My feet brought me to a park—isolated, no people—and no one is present but there are a few trees. So empty that the place doesn’t even have benches. I just sat down under the shades and leaned on a tree. I am now receiving text messages from my friends like ‘We’re here for you Mang Tomas! SMILE :D’  and ‘Don’t worry bro, maybe she’s just not the one J’  but my favorite is from Kuya Axel: ‘Stand up! Who knows, maybe she’s just a way for you to meet the ‘one’ ;)’

They really know me. They really know that I hate people being sorry for me or at least not showing or saying it to me. All of them sent encouraging messages instead of staring at you with pity. I love them, my true friends.

Now, I’m smiling and starting to get over instead of crying and pulling the grass off the ground. Still, we all know what happens before broken hearted people: everything is going to rewind before you sleep.

“Ngumingiti pagkatapos umiyak because of a girl? Tsk, tsk. Iba na ‘yan kuya” someone is standing beside me, “Joke lang. Nakita ko lahat ng nangyari, sinundan kita kasi baka kailangan mo ng kausap. Ang tagal mag-process ng mga infos sa brains ng mga tao dun” a guy? “Come on. Talk to me and tell me more, trust me, hindi ako madaldal. I’ll be your new friend and will help you move-on.” The stranger sat beside me and I looked at him. Oh, she’s a ‘she’ pala.

Woah.

Who is this mesmerizing girl?

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