All the stuff I don't say to you.
When we're on the phone, and my tongues all twisted.
When we're just texting, and I wished you'd ask some pointless question.
When I'm crying, and I can't stop,
I want to know,
All those little thoughts.
All the thoughts you do not say, because I cannot ask,
My tongue was tied, and my throat was clogged.
Just a few of the things I wish I would say to you.
So that we could know,
What the other knows.
You know?
All the things I wish I said,
When we fought,
When we laughed,
When we weren't speaking to each other.
Just never bothered,
Because i doubted that we would ever speak again.
Just a few of the things,
I wish I said...
Like how much i love you,
And how many times I wanted to scream because I was always told to hold on just one more day.
How many times I thought of my father,
And prayed I wasn't like him.
And how many times you told me I was.
And how many times I hoped I wasn't my sister,
And all the times I tried to be different.
All the times you said I was just being edgy, or cringy.
Or retarded.
Or whoreish,
Or a slut.
Or a cunt,
And maybe,
Everything without words.
And every time I wish we were okay, but then weren't.
And everytime i begged you to stay, because I didnt want to watch you slip away.
And every moment spent in school, hoping you'd message back just one more time before I couldn't.
Just a few of the things, I wish I'd said.
Just a few.
I wish I could say.
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Poems by Fel
PoetryThese are poems I have written. There are quite a few. If you cannot tell, I am putting Dates in the titles now, next to names. If it has just a date, then there is no name. If there's not title or date, then it has no date. I may label those as dat...
