An Arranged Marriage Will I Love Him?

Chp 20. Four Days Later

Four days. Four days since I've seen Sam. Four days since I found out he has a girlfriend. Four days I've spent most of my time staring at the ceiling. Four days of me laying around in my room doing nothing and shutting myself out from the world. Four days of people texting and calling me so much that I finally turned off my phone. I decided that day up in that tree as the sky touched the other side and the fireworks blew up into the sky; I made a decision. To not talk to Sam, to not have anything to do with him either; which means I can't see Lizzy any more either. It's better this way. It keeps me from having to tell him the truth, to keep him from getting hurt then again he wouldn't have been seeing as he has a girlfriend named Jessica. "Jessica" I hate that name. I sighed for what felt like the millionth time. I feel useless, lazy, and...well depressed.

A knock came at my door.

"Cassandra?" Kelly asked.

I didn't answer.

"I know your in there," Kelly continued, "I'm going to the beach with a bunch of my younger brothers if you want to come."

I said nothing, I didn't want to talk to her. Not after what she said three days ago.

"Cassandra?" Kelly called out, "please come out or at least talk to me."

Silence. That's what I'm best at especially when I'm angry at people.

I heard Kelly sigh, "Text me if you change your mind."

Doubt it. With that thought she walked away.

Three days ago the day after my decision about Sam, I was starting to doubt my decision. To at least call him back or something. I didn't know where to go so I went to Kelly. I told Kelly what happened, she didn't say anything the whole time in fact she seemed irritated or something like that when I finished telling her everything.

"I decided to stop seeing him...but I can't help feel like I might regret it or something. Everything's a mess. I know I can't be with him and he has a girlfriend but I want to be with him. Did that make any sense?" I asked confusing myself.

Kelly got off the bed, "Why are you telling me this?"

"Well, I thought since you were the one who encouraged me to see him, I thought you might have something to say," I answered.

"So it's my fault?" Kelly turned to me angrily, "That you're stupid enough to listen to a fifteen year olds advice? I mean come on Cassandra you're the mature one you should have known better."

I sat there shocked, "I...I didn't mean..."

"Of course you didn't mean anything!" Kelly yelled, "I mean you're supposed to be marrying my brother and you're out there dating some other guy!"

"He's not just some other guy Kelly," I tried to defend Sam.

"You broke up with your last boyfriend because you knew there was no future after hearing about this arranged marriage. Yet as soon as you get here you find somebody else," Kelly spat, "Your pathetic."

I flinched, I deserved that. I deserved to be yelled at and told what I was doing was wrong. She was right I don't know what I was thinking. I guess for a moment I thought I could get out of this arranged marriage thing that if I protested enough my Felix would cut it off or something but he hasn't. "Your right Kelly I'm sorry."

"Sorry? Sorry? That's all you have to say is sorry!" Kelly screamed.

"Kelly keep your voice down," I whispered.

Kelly flared her nostrils, "I don't even know why you dated that horrible man."

"Now wait a second," I stood up, "Technically we were never officially together."