I Should Have Kissed You

Chapter 15- Wishing you could die.

Melanie's POV

"What do you mean i'm to late?" I ask the doctor in tears. "I'm sorry to tell you but we couldnt save him." Hearing these words made me fall to the floor. I couldn't move. It felt like all the bones in my body were broken. "Miss, please get up. I know you are hurting but i can't have you blocking the way for people." The doctor says to me so i stand up. "Listen here, I just lost the one person in the world that understood me, the one person that knew all my secrets and you are telling me not to over react? I have 3 words for people like you. Go. To. Hell." I say and then I run out of the hospital. I look at my phone and i have 17 missed calls from Liam. "I feel like such a bitch." I say to myself. I get back to my apartment and I listen to my answering machine. "You have 39 voice messages" I hadn't been home since i left to be with the boys. "Hey Mel, It's Ronny, I was wondering if you wanted to go and get some dinner, i've sobered up and i miss you like crazy. Give me a call back." I just sat there for a minute than went onto the next message. "Hey Melly Belly, It's Josh, wanna I have a lot to tell you, havent seen you in a while. Call me back." "Hey mel, you ok? I haven't seen you in forever. You to cool for your big brother now? Haha just joking, call me back!" "Hey Mel, me and Jane are getting married. I thought i should just tell you since you never call me anymore. Love you sis." "Hey, So it's obvois you don't wanna talk to me, but i just wanted to make sure you arent dead or cutting again? You eating ok? Please i miss you sis, I love you." I fall to the floor again. I'm crying to loud that my neighbor comes over to tell me to shut up. "Go away Marvin im not in the mood." I yell through the door. "Fine, are you ok?" he asks. "I'm fine, but go away." I'm just laying on the floor crying. I go rumaging through my closet trying to find my blade. Sadly I couldn't help myself. "Melanie, i don't care if you are fine, im coming in. I know about your brother." Marvin yells. Damnit i forgot he had a key. I throw on a sweater. "Let me see your writsts." He says as he walks into my room. "You have no right to see them." I say turning away. He grabs me and rolls up my sleeve. "Holy shit, Melanie. I'm taking you to the hospital." He says picking up the phone. "Marvin put the phone down, im fine." I say covering up my arm. "Bull, you are obvoisly not fine."

Liam's POV

"You know what, i dont need her." I say almost crying. "Well she needs you, shes in the hospital for suicide watch. Her brother just died." Sarina says bursting into tears. "What? How do you know this?" Harry says holding Sarina. "Our neighbor Marvin called me." She says trying to pull herself together. "Oh my god i feel so horrible." I was so rude to her. She probably blames me for not being able see him. "We gotta go to Buffalo." Zayn adds. "Roadtrip!" Louis yells. "Sorry im not good in sad moments." He looks down at the floor.

7 hours later

"Hi can you direct us to Melanie Block's room?" Niall asks the nurse. "Oh my god. It's One Direction!" She says. "Yes, now can you please just tell us where she is?" Harry interups. "Sure shes down that hallway, first right." She says winking at Niall. We all walk into the room and see Trish sitting next to Melanie.  "Babe, when did you get here?" Niall runs over to Trish and they hug. Right as i stepped into the run i started crying. Melanie was sleeping. "Can i have a minute alone with her?" I ask everyone. "sure thing man." Louis answers. "Hey lovely, I know you can't hear me since you are sleeping, but i'm so sorry for being rude before. I was just trying to live it up and i forgot to put you before anything else. I really love you. I always will, i love you even if you have scars. I will help you through all your problems." I say crying over her. I kiss her wrist and she wakes up. "Liam, what are you doing here?" She says barely opening her eyes. "I'm here for you." and she falls back to sleep.

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I know this was a very intece chapter. But it ment a lot to me. I struggle with depression and bipolar disorder and i use to self harm and i had a great support sytem... writing is something that saved me. I hope you guys liked this chapter. I was crying while writing it, i put a lot in it <3 i love you all <3