MELTED {J.D X Reader} (HEATHERS)

I forgot, but I forgive

J.D told you to go up up stairs, so you did as he said. You just needed to gather your thoughts.

"Do I love J.D? I don't know... It seems like I don't feel love to him. He's more like a friend now... Would I still love him if he didn't hurt me? If he didn't yell? And that 'treat' I gave him in the hospitable was pure lust. What am I becoming? I don't want to be like a Heather, and just use boys like toys. I want to love them. And I know that J.D loves me... But I don't remember much of what happened before I hurt myself. Did I love him then? Should I break up with him? No, I just need to fall in love with him again. Hopeful that won't be to hard." 

You felt J.D wrap his arms around you. You jumped a bit, not noticing that he walked in."Hello, darling!" He greeted you."O-Oh, hey Jason," you called him by his real name. Thinking you didn't have the right to call him J.D if you didn't love him. He raised an eyebrow, and pulled back."Something wrong? You only call me Jason if somethings wrong," he asked, putting his hand on your shoulder. You looked the other way, not wanting  to tell him how you feel. You heard him sigh.

"If this is about the gun, and my dad. I'm sorry-""No, it's not that...." J.D turned your head to faces his, looking down at you like a hawk."Then what is it, Y/N. You need to tell me what's wrong," he told you, then lightly kissed you. Now I have to tell him... God damn, he's so sweet to me.

"J.D, Jason. I don't know how I feel about you anymore. Sometimes, you wrap me in your arms. And tell me sweet nothing. But other times... You get mad, you break things. And it makes me sacred of you. You already hurt me when I was already hurt. And if you keep that up... I don't know if I can love you. And don't say that I can love you through lust, because I want to love you when were dressed too."

J.D eye's seemed to fill up with pain and fear. His whole life seemed to crush before you."P-please tell me your joking. I-I still love you, and I'll always love you. Nothing can change how I feel about you..." He said chocking up. He didn't seem like the person he was a few minutes ago with the gun. Now he looked like he was just a small kid. Afraid of the big world around him."J.D, I'm sorry. I want to love you. But I can't. Not the person you are with a gun. Heck, I don't even like that you have a gun," you said, trying soften the words that were about to come out of your mouth."Jason... It just doesn't work. I want you to be the person that I met in the cafe a few weeks ago." You reilzed that you didn't really remember that either.

J.D looked more than heart broken. More than just pain. In his eyes were something deep, to deep for you to under stand."My love, please... How can I make it up to you?" He was on the edge of crying. And you felt pity for him."I-I... I don't know how you could...." 

You remembered. Remember why you hurt your self. Why you were hurting. It was that bitches fault... It all back to you. When you met J.D, your first date. Why he killed. Why you loved him. How he tried to save you before you ran to that damn bathroom. And you remembered just why you had run to the bathroom in tears. Heather Duke. She doesn't get to live after what she put you through....

"What? Please tell me how...." J.D asked, in complete pain.

"Kill Heather Duke. I want her dead."

J.D looked at you in shock. His eyes wined, and his mouth fell open. The tears in his eyes had diapered, for now."Y/N... I... What? Why? You just said that..." J.D looked like he was in disbelieve."Forget what I said J.D!" You snapped at him. He moved back a bit, like a sacred puppy. You softened your eyes, and kissed him. He looked at you confused as you hugged him."I love you... And I'm sorry.... I don't know what happened...." You told him in a wispier."If anyone needs to be sorry it's me."

You looked up at him and smiled."I'm the one who forgot everything. I should be the one to blame," you told him in a cheery voice, as he wrapped his arms around you."Let's go back J.D... Back before I cut myself..." J.D nodded, and pulled you both to the bed. Your back hitting the mattress."Do I get the rest of my treat now?" J.D asked playfully. You laughed, and nodded your head."Of course, darling," you joked, calling him by the name he gives you. He fell on the bed next to you."Women," he grabbed your hand," you drive me crazy."

You smiled, and moved closer to him. J.D put his right hands in your pocket, and the other around on your hip.

"Oh, we'er both far from crazy, J.D."

I'm sorry for this being short... I'll upload another one later...