You're a real asshole
And I'm a dick with a privilege
Not an image you want in your head
But your curiosity gets the best of you
And your brain goes for it
The brain's always such a traitor
Maybe that's why we come to each other for advice
Being experts in such a traitor
Like war generals
We strategize to win the never ending war
Clever therapists we are
Answering simple questions for each
Answers that we should know anyway
It's easy to forget when you always have a shoulder to lean on
You, of course, want the shoulder to hold all your weight
And let all your worries topple off your own shoulders
But you can't help but hold your tongue for fear of trust
And your teeth act like the cell bars
Trapping all the words
But you smile anyway
Because everyday things are just as therapeutic
Except that everyday things for us
Means analyzing the crack within relationships
Means talking each other up on whether you running or me on a bike would win
Which makes you an idiot
Bikes are meant to make humans faster
But it doesn't matter too much
Because we're both just running away
Racing to a finish line that leads nowhere
That's how it is between us
Always a race to say what we want
Free reign unlike the rest of the world
It's a small bubble in which we know the outside world can see
But they can't hear
They can hear the basics
But not the subtleties
It's with those subtleties that you predict
And I surprise
I feel a privilege in being able to be one of the few that you can't predict
And being maybe the only one
To rip you open and dissect your thinking
Because you spill words like you're spilling wine on a carpet
And it stains my brain
There's a story behind each stain
Only known between you and me
You trust me so much
I find it crazy how easy you spit out words
It makes me feel guilty
But I've been picking up on the little things you do
Unconsciously rewiring my brain
And I find myself starting to open the dam
For the first time in years
Admitting my intense ADD
That doesn't help yours despite your meds
I'll have you know
That it's you that gets me focused
When we're spilling stains on the carpet with each other
My head goes blank
As if I'm a hoarder
And you carry a magic wand
Poofing away all the clutter
Of course, some is left because I too bite back my tongue in retaliation
Because it doesn't make my issues go away
All that's left are boxes of bills I have yet to pay
And in due time I will
But right now I'd rather laugh as we spill the wine
Replacing all the spilled tears
It's like I'm studying medicine
Trying to memorize your anatomy
To have a diagnosis for every situation
And I know you've always been there
But it's now that I speak
And with these words I have to say
That you're the first person I trust
You're my first shoulder to lean on
The one to break a hole into the wall
My head's telling me it's a weakness
But my heart
The same heart I haven't listened to in years
Told me to grab the outstretched hand
And I listened
You really do have that trustworthy personality
Same as I do
But it makes a strong bond
In terms of chemistry
We have a triple bond, the strongest of bonds
Hand, head, and shoulders
You drive me fucking insane
As if I weren't already
As if I mind it
I only say insane
Because you're teaching me to be normal for once
And I'm fine with that
7.5 billion people in the world
And you better feel like the most privileged of those assholes
