I have hit rock bottom
And I'm drowning in the sea of thought
Yet I feel nothing
I'm angry
But it's nothing more than a mask I wear
An emotion I've learned to imitate
To make everyone hate me
So I feel more justified
In hating myself
It's pathetic
I know
But it's become better for me
To be a lunatic dressed as a sociopath
Than to pathetically waste time
Wondering where everything went
So a lie fits better than the truth
And I abuse it
I abuse emotion and truth
Just to get by
Because that's all I ever could do
I had to fight to be here
And I get no medals
I get nothing to help
Because not everything is so easy
I've been handing myself masks of emotion so I could act like I feel something
But I've felt nothing for awhile
But I still managed to convince myself
That I had fallen in love
A mistake is all it is
Just another mistake to add to the pile
The weight that holds me down at rock bottom
I can only wait and see how long I last
